I'm out, well, sorta

Hello there!
This is an introduction and story rolled into one. I may end up starting something in the introduction section, but we'll see.

Boy I sure I wish I found you guys a little earlier than now! I've been reading for a few days now, just haven't had a chance to start tread until now.
Hmmm, where to start, where to start. I guess the beginning always works :icon_wink

I was pretty sure I was gay by early grade nine I'd say. It was kind of weird actually, I can't remember a single time that I ever thought to myself "ooh, she's hot". I've just always known.

I pretty much hated what I was during high school. I hated being different, but at the same time I wanted so badly just to say "Hey, did you see his butt! That was amazing". I had a really close group of 3 friends (making us 'the four'), one being my best friend from the diaper days. I didn't want to tell them at the time, everything was just so cool, we always had a blast and I didn't want to ruin that. I wasn't craving a relationship though, so I was just fine with being quiet about it for the time being.

But then came my freshman year at college! Oh how that changed things. I got here and is sort of just popped into my head "Oh hey, you're gay, whatcha' going to do about it?" The thought gradually grew and grew, until I knew I was ready to tell someone.
I actually made the decision pretty quick. It was the week after Christmas break. Just before me and my roommate went to bed, I just sort of blurted it out. I'm a constant sarcastic joker, so it took him a good five minutes to finally believe me. He's a close friend, so I was pretty confident in talking about it with him.

I was terrified at first, but almost immediately he reminded me we've been friends for ages and that it wouldn't make a difference. So we talked for a good hour, then went to bed (separate rooms :lol. Afterwords I was really anxious. For awhile I thought it was a mistake, but that didn't last long. I gradually became totally okay with him knowing. We would joke about it, everyone thought he was just teasing me cause' that's what we always do. He asked the standard "Do you think I'm hot?" question eventually. I just gave him a blank stare, until he laughed and told me not to answer. He is. :icon_bigg

After telling him it was easier to tell people. I've gradually told my close friends here at college, most of which are from home too. I told my best friend about a week ago and he's been pretty cool about it. It's just the parents next I guess, only god knows when that'll be. I figure I'll feel its right when it is, just like when I first came out.

So that's about it! That's me and my story in a nutshell, or a glass cage of emotions (Anchorman anyone?), either or I guess.

All in all I'd say I'm happy with everything. Its cliche, but I can honestly say I've never felt better about this than I have in the last few months.

Sorry its a bit of a book, I guess I'm not the most short-worded person. :eusa_doh:

I look forward to joining the community here at EC!

 

Thanks for the welcome and congardulations guys!
The more I read around here, the more I love it. You guys have an incredible community going on.

Yes! Awesome you picked up on that! I hope it gets easier for you as time goes on. I can see you have to tons of people rooting for you here!