Well I am finally free (for the time being) and feel so good. I have been struggling with my sexuality since I was about 11 or 12, and I tried to repress my likings/feelings for the same sex for years (of course I still engaged in watching gay porn; that was hard to quit, and never did lol). My immediate family all know, and I honestly never thought I would see myself at this point in my life. I told my older brother almost half a year ago because I kind of new that he would accept me. I was scared to death because you really never know how they react, but it turned out good. He has been my biggest support system so far. Then a little under three months ago I had the courage to tell my parents. It feels good to let them know, because I just felt like they deserved to know. We are a Christian family, so my parents are taking it hard. They wanted to send me to a counselor to try and change me, but they haven't said a word to me about it for almost 2 months or so. So I think they have done their research and possibly realize that it wont work. However, a couple days ago my youngest brother (19) found out. He was the one I was mainly worried about because he has an aggressive side; we are brothers and constantly fight lol. I'm the bigger brother, and I'm the one who annoys him lol but its mainly back and forth. I guess I was just scared to tell him because I really didn't know how he would react. I mean he has always kind of assumed, but I never officially told him. So this is how he actually found out. We were just joking around having a good laugh and I had my phone open on a dating app. he grabbed my phone trying to be funny and ran and locked himself in his room. of course he saw the guys that appeared. long story short, we just laughed it out. he asked me questions and I answered them. he was actually genuinely mad because he was the last one to know. I told him why, but everything is all good. Sorry for the crappy grammar and punctuation mistakes. I'm not the best at telling stories lol. but anyways, it feels good to know that my immediate family all know. Now its just time to tell my grandmother. I haven't decided if I'm actually going to tell her, or just wait until she passes away. I don't think she could handle the heartbreak. I think it would destroy her.
That's great! And it's not the best way for your brother to of found out.. but it's nice tyhat he was on good terms with ti int the end
Congratulations, TanMan! I'm so glad that it went well with your little brother! Sometimes the people that we worry the most about Coming Out to actually end up being the most accepting!