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I'm a huge chicken

Discussion in 'Coming Out Stories' started by LuciferMorningstar, Feb 9, 2017.

  1. LuciferMorningstar

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    So today during lunch time I send my really good (female) friend an e-mail (she sitts right next to me) that I have to tell her something when we're alone. I tutor her in the evening so that's my chance to tell her I'm gay. (All thanks to your support!)

    The time comes and I teach her some English and I was getting so nervous. I babbled a lot and my hands were shaking.

    Okay now after like 2h everyone else is gone (in my office) and we're finished. I apologize for babbeling so much and she mentions the mail. I am getting so anxious, and tell her:"I want to tell you something but I'm too afraid..." Then she asked me if she should guess:

    Guess Nr. 1:
    Her: "Have you killed somebody?"
    Me:" Yes, no" *laughing*

    Guess Nr. 2:
    Her: "Are you gay?"
    I freeze up, my whole body starts to tingle. (To her defence, I tried to drop so many hints, in the last couple of days, as possible. And one of her best friends and her sister are both homosexual so she's not judgemental)
    Me: " Yes, I am"

    She was almost kinda shocked, because she didn't expect that probably. We spent some time talking about it and how freaking scared I was. She said that some things even made sense now :grin:

    So that's it, I'm too much of a chicken to come out myself... <3<3<3<3<3<3
     
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    Hey LuciferLight, Congratulations!:thumbsup: That took a lot of courage! HOW you Come Out to someone isn't important. It is very HARD to tell another person something so personal and private about ourselves. Now that you've Come Out to her, hopefully you can get used to being comfortable with no longer keeping that secret from her. That should make it easier for you if/when you decide to Come Out to another person.:slight_smile:
     
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    Found the topic ! :grin: Awesome !!!! Wow !!! I am so curious to how it felt for you? You updated your profile here :grin: Nice nice !!!! I am genuinely happy for you!!!!!!!! Go Swis!!!!!
     
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    I was shaking all day, hearts beating at 300 bpm and tingly feeling in my whole body when I said yes. My "teenage stupid brain" is telling me that I'm acting like a girl... :stuck_out_tongue_closed_eyes: <3<3<3
     
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    We all have a little scared teenage owl girl inside of us...Hed...


    (!) Thats good though ! This is the first step !

    Reason to celebrate a bit this weekend right ?
     
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    Totally. I can now act a bit more myself knowing that at least one person around me will understand me.
     
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    Exactly , I do know how it feels. I still was scared a bit in the beginning days because I told my female friend first , thinking now she thinks I like her to etc. etc. just me panicking.

    Are you still anxious ? The mood it says on your profile
     
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    Yeah it says anxious because there is no mood for: "sievturtrkw8rvwidc4ue7" you know?
     
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    Wow this is great. I'm glad it turned out well for you, congrats.
     
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    Congrats! So glad she reacted well.
     
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    Congratulations!!! :grin:

    Even though you were anxious it does feel good, right? :slight_smile: I'm so happy for you ^^
     
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    Hey I see in your profile now: Out Status: My mother, a friend and her boyfriend...

    Oooo! What happened ? Where is the update?
     
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    Ah that's nothing. On my train drive home I text my Mother (btw she has joked about me being gay with my best friend before) :

    Me: "Quick Question, you know I'm not completely straight right?"
    Her: "Grin... at least don't want to have sex with animals. Everything else is your thing."

    and then we kinda talked about live etc, and how she raised me not judging other people (like looking at the person not what their color/sexuality/whatever is)
    And my friend asked if she could tell her boyfriend (cool dude) that I'm gay and I said yes.
     
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    That's absolutely wonderful, LuciferLight!:eusa_clap Your mother completely accepting. Your mom definitely gets it and you are on a roll!

    I love your Mom's response! She's got a good sense of humor!:grin:

    Your friend gets it, too, and was totally respectful of your privacy and asked if she could tell her boyfriend (rather than simply telling him without your permission).
     
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    Not my mothers boyfriend, my (female) friends boyfriend. But still, my mother was always very accepting, like I said, she sees the person not their sexuality/color/whatevs. I mean the first time I met a trans person was with 4 years of age. And when I was younger I knew a dominatrix, a furry and other special people.

    My god I think I'm going to cry... You're all so nice and everything so lovely here <3<3<3
     
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    LOL! Yeah, I got that. Unfortunately, I posted before I fixed my post. But I've edited it since then.:grin:
     
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    You ninja edited me? darn it! bamboozled again!
     
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    <<stealth>>:roflmao::roflmao:
     
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    :grin: Nice !!!!! Heart warming stuff in here !!!!!! To much sweetness... cant...handle!!!! *looks for chocolate*