So last night I drank, heavily. It was a fun night. I had a blast. But I think part of the reason I was so happy was I was slowing hinting to a few people about me. I was not inappropriate about it, but I think that my 'altered state' was just enough to kick start me into saying a few things that got a few people wondering. For example, one of my friends said something like, "if I were gay I'd do you." I just shrugged. And there was a moment where I was 'drunk-frustrated' about something, I dont even know what, and my colleage next to me said, "It's about a gril,...I can see it." And I said, "well, close," not expecting him to apply any meaning to what I had just said, and he suprised me and immediately said, "Is it guys? Are you gay?" Wow, that really caught me off guard. So as he tried to grab me to talk about it more, I went and walked over to talk to more people. So yeah that's my story.
Sounds like you are starting to open up a bit more. I'm not there yet, maybe someday, but I wish you well.
