this coming out thing is picking up speed really quickly. i told my future roommate about a month and a half ago, then i told a bunch of friends kinda unexpectedly but voluntarily last week while drinking, told my friends mom (like a second mother figure) 2 days ago, my sister yesterday, and tonight my roommate came in and talked to me and we decided to tell my other 2 future suite-mates. my feelings right now are a mixture of nerves, excitement, embarrassment and a pinch of relief all rolled up into one and i'm a little dizzy to be honest lol. i'm nervous cause if the other roommates are uncomfortable i'll be volunteering to find another living arrangement and i'm not entirely sure how that will work, i'm excited because i can be honest with more and more people and if they are fine with it, my roommates will give me so much shit about being a fudgepacker i'll never get bored lol, and relieved cause thats 2 more people i dont have to tell...and that feeling is growing i didnt expect to be telling anyone else before summer (which is only about a week away anyway) but you know, it happened again, and we'll see what other surprises are in store. oh and all the mixed emotions are giving me such an adrenalin rush lol. i definitely wanna talk.
thanks everyone i've decided though, no more having people out me lol. its too suspenseful when i cant see how they react
wow.. update.. i kinda freaked out last night not being able to explain to my roommates what was going on. i mean, the guy that told them is nice and all and he's my bud...but the guy is completely clueless--i mean i get the feeling that he thinks being gay is a choice. i've learned something today: always come out yourself, dont let other people do it for you while you're not around. i'm sure things are gonna be fine, but if i had seen their initial reactions i could explain everything easily and answer questions, now i have to search through smiles and dig up how they really feel.
