Yesterday was one of the best nights I've had in a long time. I went to my college's GLBTA Spring Mixer. It was my first GLBTA event EVER and I was so nervous and scared. But, I just took a deep breath, grew some balls, and just went. It turned out to be one of the best decisions I've ever made. I went into the mixer and just started talking to people. Whenever I go to club meetings or mixers, I never start talking to people immediately. I wasn't insecure and never felt awkward at all. I felt so relaxed and to be completely honest, I felt more like myself than I've had in so SO long. I also met a lot of cool people (including an EXTREMELY cute guy). At this mixer, I've talked about stuff I never thought would even leave my mind, like the male celebrities I think are hot, my "realizing I'm gay" story, and what I find attractive in a guy. THe most important thing I did at the mixer was that I actually said "I am gay" out loud for the very first time. The cute guy I mentioned earlier and I were talking and he asked me if I was gay and without any hestitation or doubt, I said "Yes, I am." I've never done that before, even to the first person I told. For her, I told her that I wasn't confused anymore and she figured it out. It felt so liberating and it felt so good to say it out loud. I have gained a lot more confidence and now I'm thinking about coming out to my friends at college and my old high school. A couple of weeks ago, I felt so alone. But now, I've never felt this good. My next step: Coming Out to My Friends!
LOL, I don't know. I'm not entirely sure if I'm ready to get into the dating game yet. But, he is so FINE, though!
Well - definitely don't let him get too far away, heha - maybe a nice new friendly to hang out with? I'm so glad that your mixer went well - I'm psyching myself up for a GSA meeting this coming semester. Only 12 days until it happens!!! AGH!!! I'm looking forward to it thoug
That's SO awesome!!! Feeling comfortable being surrounded by people who are also like you is normal. It's great when it happens. That's why I still like to hang around sometimes in 'the village' in Toronto. Everyone is either gay or expects you to be gay. Congrats!
Fantastic! You took a big step and it looks like it paid off big time! The hardest part for me was saying "I'm gay" out loud for the first time, but I also got there. Please share other parts of your acceptance and coming out story with us here - a lot of people will find it reassuring to know that we share similar experiences!
Yay! Congratulations, I don't think I've managed that step yet so well done for being able to do it, its a very important step, and I'm sure being confidant enough to do it will make future steps a lot easier.
That's awesome! Glad that you decided to go to the mixer and that you could be yourself and just talk to others!
