second post here...

well if you read my previous post im support and advice you know what im talking about..

http://emptyclosets.com/forum/showthread.php?t=38638

I finally told N. I promised myself i had to tell her today and i did. While G left to work, me and N went to take the bus home. From the whole time that i got on the bus i tried to figure out a way to tell her. I asked her a few things about her being a lesbian and i tried to hint it. I asked her when she came out, how she felt, and how she knew someone was gay because she had a good "gaydar". I didnt believe it was toyo good cuz she couldnt tell if i was gay. Anyways the bus ride home was around 50 minutes. When we were around 5 minutes away from our stop I asked her if she thought I was gay. And she said no, and i was about to tell her that i was. But first she asked as in a joke if i wanted to tell her something and she giggled. I nodded and said yes. N smiled and thought i was lying. it took me 3 minutes to convince her i was. Since i played a prank on N and G before about dropping out of college she thought i was doing the same about this. I kept laughing and told her i was serious. She wanted me to prove it, but there wasnt a way unless i got a boner for a guy.. haha. When she finally believed me she asked me if i was gonna tell G, i told her i was definitely gonna tell her, i just didnt know when. Anyways when we got off she told me I shouldve told her since the start of the bus ride so we could talk more. We talked for about 15 minutes about it and then she left.

I felt so good that i wanted to tell the world haha. I was happy after that. I wanted to keep talking to her but she had to leave. Hopefully i will tell G tmrw. I cant wait, i wanna see her reaction since N's reaction was funny. haha.

Thank you all for your support. I know feel like i want to be more open to people about this. (!)

 

thank you.. feel happy for myself too..