came out on split moment decision

Last night I was sitting at my computer and I was thinking about what I would tell my friend if I was to tell her I ws bi. Becasue I had a lot of thoughts going through my head I typed it out. In a moment of resolve, I pasted it into a private thread with her on facebook and sent the following message:





"hmmm, i feel like this deserves a different thread...o well


cara,

I'm about 4 hours too early but I'm going to bed before midnight and I'd rather not do this at school. (My god, my hands are shaking....interesting.) I'm bi. "Bi" as in bisexual. I may be cracking up though because "bisexual" sounds like a weird bicycle to me right now.

I had just thought about coming out this weekend (coincedentally this is what I dreamed about that I was thinking about in real life. though this isn't important now.) and didn't even know that tomorrow was National Coming Out Day. Now that I do know, well, it seems rather fitting.

When you get this you will officially be the only person that knows (lucky you!) and I know I probably don't have to say it, (but I can't help it) PLEASE don't tell anyone else.

You know I have a hard time telling people things about myself (even things that don't even really matter). Imagine how hard this is, especailly since I've only just recently accepted it, though I've known for a while.

SO, leaving me filled with a feeling of dread, (which I hope I don't have cause for) I leave you with a new piece of knowledge.

Hmmmm, sounds like something you would win in a game: "piece of knowledge". Anyway. I don't know how to close.


omg, this is really hard. i'm having trouble clicking send."



i then started to shiver and shake and couldn't catch my breath. an hour later the phone rang. the only words i really remember are "so proud of you." while coming out was really difficult (especially that one hour of not knowing), it has helped so much with what i feel inside. it's a happy NATIONAL COMING OUT DAY!!!!!!!