I finally came out at work!

I don't know why I did, but I just did it - even without thinking.

Here is what happened, I got myself a wonderful, caring, sweet, sexy, one-of-a-kind girlfriend. Its funny, because she considers herself in a 'heterosexual' relationship with me, and calls me her boyfriend and everything. But that's besides the point.

Anyway, we've been dating for about a month now, though we've had crushes on each other for longer. I had been feeling strange when it came to her, giddy and excited, took me a few days to realize that I think I'm falling in love with her. Everyone at work noticed my change in attitude immediately, as I was always hyper and happy.

Then, my aunt was sent to Hospice. The doctors gave her less then a week to live... she died two days later. I put R.I.P Aunt (Name) as my status, and she instantly saw it, and came to try and comfort me. It was later on that night, that she told me she thought she was in love with me.

It sent me over the moon. I was so happy, that I went to work that night with a 'I don't care who knows anymore' attitude. All I could talk about was her. Surprised the hell out of my coworkers. The mixture of grief and excitement must have given me the 'f*ck the world' attitude, because I even went up to my manager ( the one I feared was homophobic ) and asked her nonchalantly, what would be a great gift for my girlfriend for Christmas.

And...

She did not even bat an eyelash. She just said, "Oh? Why not a necklace? They're on sale?"

Basically everyone who worked that night now thinks I'm gay. They don't know about my gender identity yet, but I'm waiting to see the specialist before I come out with that.

No one at work seemed to be surprised. Honestly, they acted like it was old news XD

 

BreakingBoxes: She is! She's so amazing! I've been in a state of euphoria for days because of her <3

 

Thank you everyone! I was so shocked at their responses. Tomorrow is my monday, so we'll see what they say.

Hana Solo: I got her a sterling silver necklace in the shape of a heart. She thinks she's getting Hubba Bubba grape tape. Awhile ago, she told me that they discontinued it in the states, and she really wanted one. While I did buy one for her, I hinted openly that she was getting one, so now she thinks she's getting that - which satisfied her curiosity, and she stopped guessing - but she has no idea about the necklace.

Its kind of scary, because I think I'm actually in love with her too! Honestly, she is all I can think about! I just want to be with her! I want to be her boyfriend, her husband. Every time I talk to her, she brings up the subject of children, and though I usually say I don't want kids, when it comes to her, I do. I know I can never consummate a child with her, because even if I have the sex change, I will be sterile. I still don't care! I've always wanted to adopt a girl from China, and she agrees - as long as she can go to the sperm bank to go through a normal pregnancy as well.

We were joking around and she said she would love to have 3 or 4 children, she said she if she could, she'd love to adopt siblings, just to make sure they don't get separated. That just made my night, because the same thing happened to my mother. She and all her sisters were adopted by the same family, so they were not split up, and I know how much that meant to my Mom. But personally, I think its too early to talk babies. She wants to buy a house together, and I want the same so bad!

I can no longer wait for January! I want to start T so bad! I want to be a man, I want to be the perfect husband and one day, the perfect father... but I guess I am getting ahead of myself.

Anyway, back on track, Tomorrow I go back to work for a few days ( I go on bereavement on monday to go to my Aunts Funeral ), so we'll see how it goes... I'll let you all know.