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[LdSlnce]

First off, I apologize for any errors (I'm on my iPod writing/typing this). Now that that's put of the way, to my story!


So I had said that I was going to make a cake that said "I'M GAY" on it. And the cake was made, but there was a change in plan: I didn't show it to all my family. I just told my mom to look at the cake, and then I ran off into the bathroom to hide. She ended up coming upstairs and knocking on the door to talk to me about it.

I don't know if I was in shock or something, but I was laughing as she asked what I was thinking.

We ended up talking for a bit, but then she had to go and do something. She showed my younger brother. They ended up destroying my message on the cake. And then they said they were boycotting my cake. Just for the record, my uncle absolutely loved it!

Later on when the party was over, my brother, mom, and I started talking about the cake. My mom ended up asking me how felt about being attracted to girls. I told her I wasn't sure. That was a lie, though; I don't see anything wrong with loving someone. (I'll be writing about this at the end). And then came the question...


"So you can't see yourself kissing a boy, but you can see yourself kissing a girl?"

"Yes."


She. Freaked. Out! She threw the blanket over her head and let out this weird squealing type noise. Though her reaction kinda stung, I laughed. My brother was quiet throughout the thing for the most part. He occasionally voiced his thoughts, but he was quiet for the most part. They both thought that it was gross - for lack of a better word.

Then came the rules. Now my parents said I was allowed to date next year (not that I would), but it was changed. My mom decided that I can't be doing anything with a girl until I'm 18. She doesn't want to catch me looking at girls in that way. And I could not talk to any girls I liked. And she did not want to hear about any crushes I have.


She then said that she thinks of me no differently and still loves me.


When that lovely talk was over, I went to my room to sulk. Yes, sulk... Maybe it's pathetic, but it felt like she wasn't really trying to understand where I was coming from. I could get why she was uncomfortable with it, why couldn't she TRY to understand me? But maybe that's asking for too much? She did look like she was going to cry when we were talking.

She is hoping and praying that this is just a phase or that I end up meeting the right guy. I told her that sometimes a person that is gay may find someone who they seem to be straight for. And I then told her Puppy might be that person for me. She looked hopeful. But maybe it was another lie.

Well a day or two later, she ended up accidentally telling my older brother, Dough Boy. He had tricked her. This is the part where you laugh or something! When she told him, he ended up telling her that he already knew! How? Well he found my profile on this writing site that has my story. It's under the Gay and Lesbian category. So because of that, he figured I was gay. He is so stupid sometimes... Just because you write a story under that category doesn't mean that you are! But oh well... He was really cool about it. I LOVE MY BIG BROTHER!


Now fast-forward a few days when my parents and I are picking up my youngest brother, Kid, from school. My mom and I ended up in the car alone, and I told her that I don't find it wrong. She was confused, but I explained that I see nothing wrong with being gay because you're just loving someone. She said it was ok as long as you don't get intimate. That disgusted me. Why is that the first thing she says? Is that why she's uncomfortable? Why is she thinking about what would be happening in that situation with me and a girl? So I ended up getting irritated with her. And that was probably wrong, but I was just...hurt.

When my dad came back with Kid, we went to a Mexican meat market place called Culebra. I think. Well the ever observant dad kept asking what was wrong. I refused to answer by saying that nothing was wrong; it was just a misunderstanding. He went to my mom. She told him that I was "still dwelling" on the "gay thing." He turned to me with an annoyed expression. We went outside to talk.

He kept asking, "Really, Ana? Just for that?" No one listens when I try to explain. When he finally calmed down, I told him what happened. And I told him why I got upset. We had a great talk. I calmed down and said sorry to my mom. I also got a soda and chips! So good...


So that is my story of what happened when 3 family members were added to my journey in the closet. It's getting crowded in here...

[Hidinginalabama]

Sorry to hear thar they were not super accepting but just hive them done time and they will come around to see the really you is ok. And as for your mom not wanting you to me intimate with another girl it cause that's probabaly all she thinks of when she thinks of two women together. Once again congrats on coming out to your family cause I know how hard it is. And you did it. It's a really really big step.

[Sunsetting]

You're so sweet (I like that I was one of the first to know hehehe). Just be patient with your parents this is all new to them. There will be conversations, maybe some tears, but keep loving them, they need it too. Good on you girl! ttyl!

[Chip]

Remember they (minus your brother) are just finding out what you've known for ages. So it will take them some time to process and work through. A lot of straight people are grossed out by the idea of gay sex, in the same way that gay guys (more often than girls) are grossed out about straight sex. So give them some time to come around. I am confident they will.