Hello EC'ers, my name is shaun. I found this website very recently (2 days ago) and have since had my very first bisexual experience. I've known for a year or two now that I was capable of being attracted to men, but there's only one person I've actually been completely attracted to and that's my best friend Chris. After having a fiance for 2 years then breaking up with her and being alone for 2 more years, I finally found the motivation I needed from this website to come out to my best friend who I've known since I was 12. He happens to be a virgin which I always thought must leave him very "frustrated." Well, last night we had a bit to drink and I suggested that we watch some porn together. I was sitting on the bed behind the computer chair and he was at the computer looking through xtube (great website btw) picking out videos to watch. I needed some kind of sign that he might be curious or interested, so I worked up the nerve to pull my junk out and start playing with it. Well every once in awhile he would comment about something on the video and turn around to look at me (jacking away) when I answered. He did this a few times, so I finally worked up the courage to ask him, "Chris, are you bicurious at all? Or are you 100% straight?" Chris answered by shrugging his shoulders and saying "I don't know." That was all the confirmation that I needed, he had affirmed that he was atleast a little bit curious, so I asked him "Do you want to try something and see if you like it?" He agreed to let me suck him off (it was the first time i'd touched another man, and it was glorious) which he seemed to thoroughly enjoy. I asked him after I had finished whether he enjoyed it, and he said yes. This morning when I woke up I had been dreaming about Chris and his beautiful tool all night, I wanted to run in his bedroom and wake him up the same way I put him to sleep, but I restrained myself. The day went by without much mention of last night until I brought it up this evening. I asked him "Now that you're sober, did you still enjoy last night?" He said yes and gave an embarrassed laugh, so I assumed everything was great. A few minutes later I asked if I could play with him, to which he unexpectedly turned me down. Now I don't know what to think!!!!?!?! What is going through his head? I don't know how to approach this because he isn't very forthcoming with his feelings and I am getting mixed signals. I welcome insight into this situation from anyone who feels qualified (or obliged) Thanks in advance
I'd say that you talk about it with him rather than being physical with him. He probably is working through some confusion about his sexuality. You're bisexual, relate to him. Talk to him. See where things go from there
It's a bit tough to talk to Chris, everytime I try I get the feeling that i'm leading him because he will only give short answers to the questions I ask and doesn't elaborate or ask me anything. I get the feeling he doesn't want to talk about it frankly. P.S. I apologize if my first post got a little graphic for the forum, but I was so damn excited that I couldn't help but tell the whole story.
