High school. Curiosity. No understanding of what my sexuality was. One night I was chatting with a guy about wolves. He started making sexuall advances on me in the chatroom. At first I was scared. But a part of me secretly enjoyed it. I didn't understand what was going on and I was scared. I tried to act like normal....but then I found myself returning to him and talking about it. He vanished the next day realizing how niave I was at the time I guess. Already I was starting to feel rather strange. I began having online chats with random guys and for some reason I was finding myself drawn towards talking about guys more and more. It felt right and began to scare me less and less. Then one day in high school, I got curious and ask one of my best friends if there was any other guys who liked guys at the school. I met one guy, and began to explore just a little bit with him, my sexuality. That same day I came out to my mother who was in shock and did not believe me. A few years went by and I was in college. Mom would always ask me if I still liked guys and I would say no because I didn't want to hear her rant or drag out annoying conversations. However I was hurting on the inside as I knew I was actually interested in guys more then girls. I admit I tried to date girls, tried to be normal, hell even went full home run....but it never felt right. I started to make friends who lived nearby who were also gay. The more I was around them, the more I felt right about myself. Finally my mom asked me as we were leaving the college from my second year if I truly was gay and I finally told her the truth that I felt quite so. She hugged me and only asked that I be careful. Over time, she admitted she had a bit of a hard time coming to terms with it but today is loving and respectful of who I am and is glad that I am happy. My father and my brother both were also very accepting as are most of my closets friends. So why am I sharing this? I feel pride in talking about this and view this journey as something wonderful that left me finally satisfied and has helped me shape myself into who I truly am. I am proud of my sexuality and will never give in to those who look down upon it. Thank you for your time (*hug*)
Your welcome! I never really had a chance to share my tale with many folks and am glad to finally be able to do so in hopes that others can draw some confidence in themselves =D
