Hi EC! Last night I told the first person I have ever told that I was gay. I was eating dinner last night with just my sister. My other siblings were away and my parents were out of the house. I thought 'what better time would there be to tell her, she is surely the first person I would want to tell anyway.' So I told her. It was actually pretty hard. Here is how it went. me: *gets up to retreive the peas from the microwave* her: me: want some peas her: yeah sure me: her: me: her: (Ok, so there was a long time while we just sat there eating. After finishing my peas, I told my self I would tell her, I basically forced myself. I was breathing so hard, that I'm sure you could hear it 20 feet away. I was about to pass out from nervousness.) me: Uh, [her name] can I tell you something? her: yeah, sure (I couldn't look her in the eye, I was breathing as hard as an elephant just finishing a marathon, we waited in silence for about 30 seconds, and then I started to tear up.) me: I'm gay (here I started crying, I took off my glasses and wiped my eyes.) her: (she was sitting across from me) that's ok me: (I just kept crying) her: (she stood up and walked over and kneeled by me) that is okay, [my name] you can't help it. oh, [my name] it's ok. me:*sniffle* her: Sorry for asking but, how do you know? (and this is true, I hate that question. I know ok, I like girls, I don't know how I know, I just do) me: I have known since 8th grade her: wow me: yeah, I feel like I have been keeping it a secret for a long time her: yeah me: did you ever think I was gay before now? her: (slight pause) no me: her: [my name], I don't see you any differently. You're still my sister. me: yeah, now you just know a little bit more about me. After that I just talked to her about how it has been hard for me to live my life like a lie, and talked to her about the girl I like, and my friends who are always pestering me about who I like. I was great just to tell someone. I told her about EC and how it has really helped me. It really was great. She said that she really didn't care weather I was gay or not. The only thing is that because I got so emotional (I'm not that emotional of a person) she may not want to talk about it with me more, in fear of upsetting me. Although I made it clear that we could talk about it, and that I would probaly love to answer any questions that she had. This was a big step for me, but I am so glad that it went mostly well, and then afterward we watched 'Edward Scissorhands"
Congratulations on coming out to your sister. I can imagine it was a huge step for you. Great that you seized the opportunity and went for it, and that it turned out so well.
I also learned that my sister didn't think that she was gay because as some of you know I though she might be. http://emptyclosets.com/forum/support-advice/71544-my-sister-gay.html