When closeted, were you ever so stauchly homophobic to conceal you gayness? I hate to say it, but I was, and sadly, at times, am. :help:
Slightly yes, but definitely not anymore. I suspect it was a subconscious envy of the gay guys who had managed to get over it and get on with their lives while I was still denying it and feeling sorry for myself.
yes very i had to to survive, how ever, this is part of it for many people. i can say this though it is rather vague, do what you have to and want to do, and never be stopped ))
Yes, I had internalized homophobia, and I did at times present myself as at least mildly homophobic in order to defend myself. I am not happy or proud of it, but it is what it is. I'd like to think that the way I behave now and the efforts I make to help others feel safe makes amends for those past wrongs.
It's safe to say I had internalized homophobia but never vocalized it. Even while struggling with accepting myself (and a lot of denying), I still spoke out as a supporter of gay rights. It was/still is a weird situation.
