Started to come out!

Hey guys! My name is [REDACTED]. I am 13 years (and 143 days) old. I am a 5' 11" tall male with blond hair and blue eyes (I wish... Their actually green!). I am not the healthiest teen in the world, but I am hoping to rectify that. I love almost anything to do with technology, math, or literature. None of this matters, though, because above all... I'm gay.

Saturday morning (It's Monday afternoon for me right now) a friend/acquaintance of mine revealed that he's gay to my Youth Group (we were at a retreat for the weekend). Seeing everybody's response and support inspired me. Before that morning, I had thought it would be YEARS before I would even consider coming out, but later that morning, I approached him and revealed that I was also gay.

He was supportive and didn't make a big deal of it, which I'm grateful for, and, with his support, I told two others who were also very supportive. I'm sure within a few hours 7-8 people knew from our conversations, I wasn't really trying to hide my position from them, since most of them are pretty good friends, and I trust them.

Coming home (It's Sunday now), I considered telling my parents. I thought it would be a good idea, but at the same time, all I could think of was all the bad scenarios that could happen. Now, I don't really know what my parents think of homosexuality. We are a Christian family, but our church is a modern one, and isn't against many things, like homosexuality. And from what I've heard, my parents aren't against it, but it's kinda hard to tell.

I started planning when I would tell them, and Googled some tips for coming out. But when the time came, I wimped out. So I waited for an hour or two untill I worked up my courage again. It was right before we were watching a movie (For those of you who are curious, I don't remember what it was. Something about the Crusade in Jerusalem.), but things didn't quite go as planned.

So now I feel like it's a bad time (for reasons I'm not going to get into), and put the moment off. And that's where I am now. I felt like it was a good idea last night, but maybe I'm rushing. I don't know if I'm prepared to deal with whatever may happen, but at the same time, I feel like it's time. I've been hiding this for 4-5 years now.

Does anyone have advice for me? How hard was it for you to tell your parents? Do you think I should wait a while, untill I'm in H.S. or something?

 

Thanks. They really don't seem homophobic to me, or at least I don't remember any homophobic comments. I remember mentioning Dumbledore's gayness to my mom once to gauge her reaction, and she didn't go into a rant or anything, so I guess that's good? Also, I know my grandma will be accepting, so if anything goes badly, I can go to her for support...

 

Thanks! It felt so good to tell someone!