May have accidentally "come out" at work today

*Feeling a little shaky*

We have lunch at work with cakes every friday where we sit and talk, eat cake and are social. Today I sat next to the guy who has the office next to mine, a young guy, and we began talking about computer games. So, then I manage to blurt out that when I played Borderlands with my girlfriend, she ... blah blah... and she ... until I realized that I was totally blowing my cover. I am not sure if the others around us heard, but they might have, we were sitting pretty close around a large table, so even though those further in the other end didn`t hear it, at least 3 people were sitting next to us on each side of the table. He would definitely have noticed, but didn`t react in any way, which is why it took me a few seconds to realize what I had said

God, when I start talking computer games, I just don`t think! I get far too enthusiastic about it, so I blabber. Feeling a little uncomfortable now about who heard/didn`t hear. I hate that feeling, because I really have nothing to hide, really. It`s just the fact that this was an accidental outing, instead of something I had planned and prepared myself for.

On the other hand, maybe by some miracle they didn`t hear, and he didn`t notice that I said she and perhaps I got worked up now for nothing

:bang: Moron me should learn; not talk about computer games at work, no matter how many competitions the other guy has won! Computer games leads to outing, computer games are bad! :dry:

 

Yeah, you`re both right, and it`s not a hostile work-place at all. I work at a pretty decent place compared to a lot of other people, it was just the initial nerves that grabbed a hold of me there. And still somehow do. And I guess a part of me hope that they heard, so that it does get spread around a bit, so that they`ll know, and I can participate in the conversation and bring up my gf and our stuff, just as much as they bring up their husbands, and their darned curtains and all that jazz.

Actually, now that I am thinking about it, I am almost worrying more they didn`t hear.
Gah :lol: People, myself included, are really weird most of the time!

 

Oh yeah, and I really also loved to hear about how one colleagues neighbor cheated with 6 different people while she was married, and how they still live together and make it work. Or how her roof is in serious need of repairs.

Yawn.

 

I`m Norwegian, our word for boyfriend/girlfriend is gender neutral, and isn`t used to describe friendly relations. Kjæreste. It means the one you hold dearest, as opposed to venn/venninde where one means friend (gender neutral relatively) and the other mean female friend

But that`s it for the boring language stuff Just thought I should explain it as two of you suggested the same thing.

 

This was on friday, so I`ll see on monday if anyone says anything. But yeah, now I am feeling a lot calmer about it. They didn`t react visibly any of them, so.. The guy I was talking to noticed though, he got that half a second enforced neutral look, where they don`t show an expression because they don`t want to seem impolite by being surprised. I`ve seen it before, lol.

Actually, on Thursday is Valentine`s Day, and I am going to my GFs right after work. I wanted to buy those boxes with strawberries and melt my own chocolate to dip them in. She loves that kind of stuff But the strawberries gets bad quickly, so I am thinking about doing it at work during lunch-break, lol, so that they`re fresh when she gets them. Mostly, our little kitchen isn`t crowded during lunch, cause they go to the cantina one floor up to eat. However, should someone go in there, they might see it and ask, and I`ve decided that if they do, I`ll definitely give a "straight" answer
(pun intended)
Basically because this slip up made up my mind that I am not interested in this continued hiding stuff or feeling nervous about something that I absolutely shouldn`t be nervous about. I`m not going to do the same thing like with my previous job, hide it until the last week at work before anyone finds out, especially since they there reacted so well. It was ridiculous that I waited so long.

 

Oki, so now I am out to 3 people at work (that I know of).

My original plan didn`t work, but had a casual friday lunch again, and three of us had a conversation, in which I managed to say "her" connected to the conversation about what I did on Valentine`s day, a few times. One of them reacted with that weird look of hiding surprise to be polite, the other one didn`t. She actually still seemed completely relaxed, which was a pleasant surprise. I would have guessed that if anyone there would take it like it was no big deal, it would be her.

So, with the gossip box active like in any other office, I should be completely out in a few days

Which feels very nice!

 

Yeah, you are quite right. I do regard myself as out now, because those who don`t know will be mostly the ones who I do not work closely with. The rest will gossip it out.
It`s nice not having to be careful with what you say.

Thanks :icon_bigg

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Oh, I care, but in a positive way

Thanks :lol: