Today I had lunch and came out to my other best friend. We've been through hell and back together. It was such an affirming conversation- he so gets me. He immediately got how deep my closet was, gay being just one of many things. And he so knows how I over think and over plan just about everything! So liberating. I feel so much less tense and Anxious, I'm not at all depressed. That leavEs my 2 kids and parents. Wow huh! (and I will need to come clean with my former girlfriend, too) Life is before me. Ready to fly. I used to love hang gliding. I have my Hang 2 license. At one point, when my kids were little, I crashed a glider. I was blessedly unhurt, glider was to totalled. I kept one of the crumpled down bars, to remind me of my luck. Now I think it's something different for my life - I need the courage to be open and vulnerable about myself to others - that creates authentic relationship. Yes, I might crash, but I have my wits and strength and a higher power to keep me safe. I want to fly and create a life I love. I may crash, then I'll go on. Love you all. Peace
This describes exactly how I felt after coming out to most everyone. I could finally breathe easy, the weight was off my shoulders, nothing to hide. I was finally able to get on with my life and have fun. Great post and congrats.
