Finally came out to myself

It was only at the end of January that I discovered I might be gay, through out my whole life I have lived a straight life style and brought up to be a man. I spent a good chunk of February being heavily in denial and letting emotions just take over me, I would cry myself to sleep on some nights pondering "how could this be" and how I would face my parents (mum being rather religious) and others, I am originally from Hong Kong and men are expected to show strength.

I just couldn't accept myself, but after a lot of browsing on the internet and this forum I realized it can't be all bad. I talked with one of my really close friends about the feelings and realization I was having, and shocker and surprise, he was gay. He gave me tons of advice and support and after weeks of waves of emotions, I accepted myself.
It was a very pleasant feeling to finally accept the true me. I believe I "knew" since I was about 7 but just completely eliminated and dismissed any "gay thoughts" and scoffed and take it as a joke when I get called "gay".

It's good to figure out that I am not straight and try to live a straight life that I was taught by and influenced by.

Although I accepted myself and came out to one of my closest friends, I am still in deep fear about my family member's reaction, relatives and other friends as well.

I am just so glad I finally now know who I truly am