My Story (thus far)(please read)(long but interesting)

Hi everyone...im fairly new here and thought i would just write about my coming out experiences and my life in general (wasnt sure whether to put this in Introductions or in this thread)

I began to know that i was gay in Year 7...back then i thought i was just bi and i was pretty cool with it....ever since ive been little ive been a lot more like my sisters than my dad wanted me to...lets just say i would rather dance than go camping...this said, im not a full on queen...im just a city slicker who likes to party.

Anyway... in year seven i was in class with a HOOOOOT guy but of course i didnt do anything cos i didnt even know i was gay yet....i just knew that he was rather attractive......The next year i moved to high school and began to become friends with the popular crowd....i soon discovered that they didnt give a fuck about me and so i found a new group of friends...(yes this is moving the direction of coming outs...bear with me) These were some of the nicest people ive been friends with and some of the hottest.....

Moving on to year 9, i was put in a class with most of my friends and couple of people i didnt know including a guy (lets call hima alex)....Anyway, Alex is part of the pot smoking womanising group who would pay out homos. After a while i began to sit next to him in nearly every class and we became really quite good friends....but i was still intimidated by his friends so i couldnt ask him if he wanted to go to the movies or anyhting cos i thought they would call me homo or something. Our friendship got stronger....but we began to fool around and hit each other on the ass just for fun and stuff like that.....This became a bit more serious with him grabbing my crotch....(and lets say i didnt hesitate to reciprocate) ...time went on and one day he had a visible boner (he said it was because of the hot female teacher) and i "accidently" grabbed it...He didnt get all defensive either....anyway moving on. ......Ove rthis year and the next i developed a deep lust/crush on Alex but was still too afraid to do anything......

In year 10 my school organised a trip to europe which me and my friends went on...Alex didnt come....on this trip i came out to one of my best friends....and she was totally fine with it...turns out shes bi.....Spurred on by this, i came out to my other best friend....Anyway...The first person i told and i spent pretty much the entire trip gossiping about the hot guys in our year level and she thought that Alex was gay....so was happy bout that.....

Another part of the trip that you have to hear about is what happened on some of the nights...In a couple of the places there were communal showers and i was pretty excited bout this though of course no one else knew....one of my friends is a black belt karate guy so i was going to have my shower at the same time and let me tell you...his ass is to die for...his front aint too bad either....on another night i saw one of my other friend's erected dick.....god that was good......Getting back to the story....

That year was pretty crap after that because Alex became friends with someone else in the class so my time with him was limited...and the next year i was not in one of his classes...boo hoo....Later on i plucked up my courage and asked him to go see a movie with him....sat there the entire time not knowing what to do....it wasnt uncomfortable but i was just so nervous......after that ive asked him a couple of times to do somethign or come to my birthday party and he didnt reply......kinda feel a bit rejected....but he still says hi to me in the hallway and we still have conversations......

Ok so this year im in none of his classes and over this year i have come out to around 10 of my best friends and they are all fine with it (they're all girls incidently)....i havent come out to family tho....this year i was round one of friends places with a couple of girls and guys and we start playing strip poker....this is with the guy that i saw the erection of....he pulls down his pants cos he lost and im like :eusa_danc he is huge...im sitting there thinking i have to remember this for later and hes just flopping it around......heaven.........anyway...okay so this year is coming to an end and my plans for the futura are to come out to Alex and tell him how i feelat the graduation idnner and tell my parents on my 18th birthday....how does everyone feel bout that?

 

Hey everyone...just thought i would update...Last week i went on a retreat with about 20 other ppl from my school including the two best friends i cam e out to first....Alex didnt come but his hot firend did as well as the hot counsellor who i think is gay....anyway we got into small groups and on the last night...after we came to trust all the ppl in our small groups we had a big D and M...i was last to talk cos we all had a chance to speak about our lives and our problems etc...anyway i went last and i was building up to that i was gay....funny thing was that i didnt cry for that but i did when i told them that i felt invisible at school becuase most of the popular kids prob dont even know who i am....getting on with it....wen i was telling them, my legs were shaking so badly that i thought i was gunna pass out or something.....wat was so bad was that i was sitting next to one of the hot counsellors (male of course) and he wsa reassuringly patting me on the leg....anyay...after i came out them we had a big discussion about exuality ad theyre all fine with it...by the way, my small group consisted of 3 ppl i had never talked to in my year level...one a sporty jock...one a popular pretty girl...and the other a gossip (kinda nervous about her being a gossip)...so they were all fine about it but i still didntell them about Alex......okay so i came back from the retreat and realised how crap my life was because when i was away someone from my class that doesnt like me at school had plastered my house with eggs so that hurt....

Okay so after the retreat i went and saw Borat...not really got anything to do with coming out just that it was really funnay and i encourage you to see it!!!

Then i went for a sleepover at one of my girlfriends house ith some other girls and two of the guys i had seen naked in Europe....The one wiuth the huge dick was at it again..wanting to play strip pojker and naked murder in the darka nd lets say i didnt day no!!!!!Wat was really good tho is that i was talking to one of my good friends that is quite homophobic and i said "Would you disown me if i was gay???" and he said "No, that would be your choice adn i cant stop you" i of course corrected him that it is not a gay persons choiice to be gay but wat i was really happy about was that he is not offended by being friends with gays...just wen they come on to him....

Lastly i went to the Robbie Williams concert a couple of nights ago and god he is hot...i think he was on somethingtho and he is definately gay!!!

okey dokey...thats all for no but i will probably keep posting on this wen anyting interesting happens...bye thanx for the replies and i will definately try Strip Jenga with tmy firend with the big dick....

PS we had classes today that ere basically giving us homework for the holidays and it turns out im prob gunna be in Alex's class for at least one subject!!!YAY BYE!!!

 

Hey everyone again....thanx for the replies....sorry if my typing stinks, the "W" key keeps screwing uyp so if theres a ord thats rong just add a w....anyway....thought i ould just add to my life story abut whats been going on...i'm almost positive that my mum knows im gay...anytime e talk about my love life and the future she always the words your 'partner' instead of ife etc....and im so happy cos if shes talking like that now before i come out, then my guess is that she'll be totally cool wen i actually come out...my dad on the other hand...ell i have no idea how he's going to react....he alays says he is not homophobic and loves me unconditionally but i kind f expect there to be an akwardness (so not how you spell that) beteen us after i come out because there is already a huge gap beteen who i am and who he is....i really dont think i would be able to live with him if he wasnt my dad...he drives me crazy!!! i reckon it will be like when i came out to my overtly and exptremely religious friend....who says she's fine with it but i get the feeling that weneva i say a guy is hot or when i talk about Alex that she feels that im talking dirty or sinning or something....anyway...the only reason i came out to her is that she "liked" me more than a friend.....Thats actually happeing again with another one of my friends that i get the feeling has a crush on me except i dont wanna come out to her...im not sure wheter this is because im not ready come out to her or because i simply like the attention...i dont often get that much attention from either sex...( you may have noticed on this forum that i do like to be in the spotlight when i am able to)....so im not sure whether i should come out to her...any suggestions???

Okay next topic....i went out with this guy from school the other night to see casino royale (the best bond movie ive ever seen(although ive only seen 4)...my god i ould see that again just to look at Daniel craigs FIIIIIIIIIINE body in those tiiiight trunks.......anyway this friend that i went to see it with is incredibly hot and has a nice body with the best ass ive ever seen (and yes ive seen it in all its glory)....anyay the bit where Bond is in the swimear i had to try and cover up my happiness and glee cos the hot guy next tpo me is obviously straight.....anyway i soooowish my hot firend as gay.....Then today he invites me to go to the pool exept i have no car and no ay to get there....soooo pissed off i didnt have the chance to see him topless although i do have video of it (hot hot hot)....

Lastly i just wanted to say in reply to your responses that my life isnt perfect....i dont lead a TV life where nothing goes wrong and my life is filled with hot guys i see naked playing strip poker...i just put in the things that i enjoyed to maybe brighten up your day and plus i just like talking......thanx again for the replies it makes me feel like im not talking to a brick wall....have a great day and an interesting life bye!!!