My story!

I basically knew I was gay (or not totally straight, still figuring that out...) for a veeery long time. Now I can remember my favorite character in M.A.S.H. and I'm kinda proud of myself.
Until about two years ago or so, I was almost sure I was gay (no gf yet). Then some friends set up a date with a girl from another school and I said I'd give it a try... mostly for the sake of my family that was upset for me having no gf. I gave up after a while and gradually broke contact because it didn't feel right. We're still really good friends now.

After finishing high school, I met M. in an online game and after talking I saw his hi5 page... he's totally out so you can imagine my joy. We still talk a lot, although he doesn't get on really often.

Second person I told... an old middle school friend I've only seen once in the last 7 years or so. We actually got along better and made good friends after talking online. She was really supportive and still is. She's the person I could consider 'my best friend' right now.

Going to university abroad, I thought it would be awesome and I could be completely out- too bad. The only openly gay guy around is the stereotypical girly kind-of guy... so most people have the wrong impression. I checked people out during first semester- mostly guys, but girls too... but that was it. I also came out to another friend I had chatted to for 8 months or so.

After winter break and with second semester, I realised I had a crush on A., so I told S. (a girl that liked me) all about it. She tried to help (she's awful in giving advice), but it was something I had to work out on my own.

Eventually, I just told A. I liked him (here...). But it wasn't worth it so I'm just trying to forget he exists.

In the mean time I came out to another friend, sort-of a 'fag hag' (#6), who like a lot of the people I came out to, has 'problems of the heart', then another (#7) who I used to hang out with a lot until she got in a relationship. We started hanging out a bit more since I told her. I also told a 3-years friend from the US around the same time...

Then my birthday came and a friend invited me over for 'a glass of wine'. So that was #9. It was the first one not really planned but it worked out all right. On the same day though, I realised I got turned on by S. and I started questioning my sexuality... again. I thought I was gay, but now?

And an hour ago while in an arts club meeting I started talking to P. about relationship-related stuff (people we liked). I just told her that had I liked someone and it didn't work out, so we started the guessing game. After a while, I got bored and told her it was a guy... and then she guessed who it was right away (although she didn't know his name). When I asked how she did it, she just said he looked like the guy most likely to like guys. So she probably has a fairly good gaydar although she doesn't know how to use it.
Then it turned out my guess of who she likes was actually correct... and I've never seen her around him, nor has she seen A. around me. Odd, isn't it?

So that's my 10 people I came out to so far and the exciting story of how people pull words out of my mouth- although I didn't detail on that. But it's not just that, I kinda feel better telling people. Woohoo! Hooray for 10 people!
I'll keep updating this topic as more people find out or realise it- although it's highly unlikely.

 

Ok, I guess I wanted to clear that up at the end (but I apparently forgot), so I should now.

M. is openly gay, A. is the guy I liked (well, still like to be completely honest), the rest are all girls. For some reason, it's easier to come out to girls than to guys. I didn't even want to come out the last time I did, hell. But everything was ready, so why not? I like being honest about myself.
There's a friend (guy) I've been meaning to come out to for a while, but I don't really find the right occasion to.

A part of me still wonders why I need to come out now, but I guess it's just because I feel better being honest about myself. There's the issue of A. not wanting anyone to know, but if I come out to people, they won't give up until I tell them who the 'lucky' guy I fell for was.

Well, at least I came out to 10 friends in 6 countries across 4 continents so far!
5 are girls from my own country, the rest are all very spread out
Beat that!

 

So first I tried to come out to one of my guy-friends... I wanted to see his reaction I guess. I couldn't just say it out loud so I asked about something else and I gave him the link to EC in the end... he didn't get anything so I told him he should just forget it.

Then I talked a bit with a former high-school classmate which was among my best friends and he said that if I'm sure about it, I should do whatever my heart tells me to (not those exact words, but the same idea). Feels great to have such friends!

That makes 11 and one still... kinda hanging I guess.

 

Okay, that one definitely didn't want to get the message... I'm not gonna insist on it.

Anyway, I came out to another friend earlier this evening (IM again, sucks to be away from home). He was a bit surprised I guess, but he was supportive. Woohoo!

Next one I guess is gonna be a bit of bad luck =D. Hopefully not.

 

Well, it turns out #13 was a girl that thought it was totally cool- she said she's a big fan of ---- (insert anime name here) where there's no straight stuff going on. So I guess anime are making the younger generations more accepting of gay people! Heh. Who'd've thought.

 

OK, I can't really breathe right now... I really don't know how I ever had the strength to do this, but I did.
I came out to my sister (online), but she'll come visit on Friday. It went well, but I'm still a bit in shock as to how I managed it.

Thanks guys and gals!

 

Okay, updates!

#15. A very good friend of #6 (she thinks he's completely straight) whom I found out from #18 that actually knows about it. Turns out he's actually curious... mmm . I don't mind that #6 spilled the beans, I wanted to tell the guy anyway . And maybe, who knows...

#16. Roommate of #7. Since I was very involved in Glamour Day, she asked me if I was really very tolerant or just looking for tolerance (a VERY extended version of 'are you gay' - I told her 3 words were enough but she said she didn't want to be tactless). So she found out, turns out she watches lesbian porn a lot . Good thing for her roommate I guess. Have to get them drunk sometime

#17. My ex gf. She was really shocked, I had to put on the webcam. No idea why I came out to her. Just to feel better, I guess. I had to avoid the tricky stuff a bit, but it turned out okay. She thinks it's a phase for now, but I'm sure she'll change her opinion.

#18. Same town, not such a good friend but we hang/used to hang out a lot. (I'm at a foreign uni... and #15 is from the same town as well ). I told him at the Chemistry party, as usual after I drank a bit. I don't mind, I intend to come out eventually anyway.

Woo, long time since the last update. Mwahaha. Sorry for the grammar mistakes, if any, but I can't be really bothered right now

 

She took it totally cool! She said 'If you both want it, what's the problem?'.
I love my sister

On another line of reasoning, I forgot there were more news actually. My lab-mate in Chemistry turned out to be the only openly gay guy on campus- and he's actually way cooler than I thought, now that I got to know him. So, since his future roommate (girl) also knows, I guess that makes 20 people! Woohoo!

He invited me to go with the two of them on Sunday to a gay party downtown (Monday is free). I told him I might bring some more people, but I never thought I'd bring 4 =)- literally, #6, #7, #15, #16.

Time to update my out status once agaaaaaaaain