:goodevil: So i have told myself many times over I am ready to tell all and be at peace with myself. I have told some that I am gay (mostly others who are gay as well) but I always seem to go back on my own word and be miserable. I told my mother a couple of times when I was around 17 or 18 however, she was drunk and didn't ever remember anyways. With me it seems to be so god awful complicated as with many I am sure. I am not the average gay boy that comes to feel bold and confident enough to tell the world and move on! No, I'm gay, I'm not gay, I sleep with men and I dress in drag and go to gay bar's and leave with men. much of the time I have extremely strong characteristics of a female. I have dressed in drag all my life and will for the rest of my life.. I have proven hundreds of times to myself and every guy I've ever slept with that I am gay and I am a Queen. Yet, it's still just allot of speculation and guessing games with all who know me. I am going crazy, please help me to do the right thing and come out 100%. I think my message is a little distorted and perhaps confusing, sorry but this the way my thoughts and emotions go every day!
