Aliens, Lesbians, Same Thing

I made a thread a few days ago about coming out to my roommate and I've been thinking about it so much that I just felt like I needed to get it over with so I could stop freaking out.

So a few nights ago, I randomly decided to do it while we were watching TV together. We turned to VH1 and that show "I'm Married to A..." came on. The episode was about a woman who married a man who had been abducted by aliens and a woman who was marrying a closeted lesbian. So now it's like a sign from God that I had to do it.

I kept saying "so..." and then completely freezing and she was walking around the room doing other things. I finally said "I think I should tell you something" and she stopped and waited for me to talk. Then I froze up. She said "Are you sick?" and all I could do was shake my head. I didn't say anything for a long time and she said "you're scaring me." I just kept apologizing because I always have a hard time telling people. So she sat by me and put her arm around me and said "It's okay. If you're not sick, it's gonna be okay."

Finally, I told myself that I didn't actually have to say the words, I just had to get my point across. So I gestured to the screen and said "What if I told you that I was like those people on TV?"

And she said, "An alien abductee?"

I started cracking up and I said "NO!"

"Oh, you're gay?"

"Yeah... I mean, I think so. I think bisexual is more accurate."

And she proceeded to tell me how I don't need to label it and all of this other insightful stuff about sexuality that I've heard before, but that I never expected to hear from her. She told me how nothing is going to change and that it's all going to be okay. She even apologized to ME because she felt bad that I felt like I couldn't tell her about it. We talked about my family and why I'm not coming out to them anytime soon. She was just really cool about the whole thing.

I feel a lot lighter now that I'm not hiding it One step closer to being out and proud!