3 down, 3 millions to go :)

Today I came out to my best friend, my sister, and my brother-in-law!! I was anxious all day but everything went really well and I know I'm very lucky to have such accepting and awesome people in my life :')

I told my friend S that my world had been turned upside down and everything I knew about myself had been flushed down the toilet. I told her that I had some news and wanted her to come over and later we'd go to my sister's house. I had been up since 5:00 AM with anxiety. So my friend finally showed up late at my house around 3:30 PM and I told her almost right away. .."So I have some news.....umm...do you have a guess about what it is?.." She said does it have something to do with B? (B is...or WAS my future, my everything, ...the person I had been planning with to move outta state with). I said, "well, my news affects that situation." ....She had no idea. So I said, "ok,.... I'm not bi, I'm gay... like 100%..." And right away she said "ok." phew!!! She was completely accepting and cool with it.(!)(!)(!) The few minutes of clarification and chit chat after that I don't really remember because I had an overwhelming feeling of relief. Part of the burden had been lifted! On to my sister's house a few hours later...

Once we got there I just wanted to blurt it out but my niece was around (7 years old) and I am fine with her knowing except that I don't want her to let it slip to the rest of my family before I get a chance to tell them myself. So I waited for the right moment. We were all (me, my sister, brother-in-law, and friend) sitting by the bonfire and I just kinda blurted it out with no real introduction " so I wanted to come over tonight because I have some news...its not bad... ok... I'm gay" ...It was REALLY awkward for like 30 seconds but I did kinda just drop it on them. But I could tell that my sister was really trying to compose herself. And she smiled. Everything was fine. I made a joke: "When at 30 years old the only man that you had ever considered having sex with is Adam Lambert...that should have been a sign!" We laughed and it was all good. I expained how I really thoguht I was gonna end up with B and I felt stupid for not knowing because of my age but they were very understanding.

It feels awesome to have gotten it off my chest! (!) (!) (!) I'm so glad that's out of the way. I still have my parents, my aunt, my cousin and B:eek: to tell, which will be much harder. But I feel good so far and I'm not in a rush to tell them yet. I'm just glad that some of the most important people in my life know.

A weight has been lifted.

 

Thanks Dude!!