OMERGOD! :newcolor::newcolor: Went to a suprise party the other night, had such a great time! My very very good friend (we can call her princess) introduced me to one of the prettiest girls I have ever seen. Like super hot (turns out she was a model) anyway princess, hot chic and me were all having a ball and we were getting along really well. We were all dancing together and my guy friends were all super peeved that I was getting along so well with this girl I had never met before. Later on in the night someone suggested a game of spotlight (which is this game where everyone runs away into the night and a few people with torches chase after them), it was a great game since there was a few acres of land to to hide in. Myself, princess, hot chic and my guy friends were all hiding in a group when we were "spotted", we all ran and myself and princess got seperated from the main group. We hid in some bushes for a while then we sat there talking: Princess: So what do you think of "hot chic", do you think she is good looking? Me: Yeah she is very pretty but I couldn't date her. Princess: Really?, well you do deserve someone better. Me: Aw thats sweet "princess". Princess: Even my mum said so (her mum btw is a teacher at the school we attend), she said you will marry the most beautiful girl and make her very happy! Me: Well i'm sorry to say it but your mum is very wrong. (Princess must of thought I was after pity since she had gotten up and had started to walk around) Princess: Ok, but you shouldn't put yourself down like that. Me: No what I mean is that I will never marry a girl... (I sat down with Princess back in the bush were hiding in) Princess: Why do you say that didn't you see the way "Hot chic" and all the girls at school talk to you???? (I didn't really know what to say, would I tell her i'm gay or should I get out of this situation??? I chose the first option, I dont really know why it must of been the circumstances of being completely alone in a bush with one of the people I trust most.) Me: "Princess"... Im need to tell you somthing that you can't tell anyone else... not even your mum or your sisters... Princess: I promise (her eyes were wide but she had her cute smile which gave me confindence) Me: I can't marry a girl... I won't ever marry a girl... I can't love them that way.... its something I can't control... please don't hate me! Princess: Oh, "My name" (she grabbed my hand and held me close). Me: Princess please, please don't hate me! Princess: I don't and I won't... ever. (We held each other for a while not saying anything, just looking at the stars through the leaves of the bush that hid us from the outside world) Me: You know I think you are much prettier than "hot chic"... Princess: (she smiled) I love you "My name"! (thats as a friend BTW) Me: I love you to "princess"! (*hug*) We emerged from the bush and went for a long walk, we talked about everything from if I had told my parents to who my crushes were. Turns out she had just handed in a report on bi, homo and hetero sexuality for her health class. So she understood the pain I had been going through (well as much as a straight person can). She also was very supportive and said that if i ever needed to talk to someone she would listen. When we got back to the main house it was if nothing had happened, it was funny when a friend came up to us and did the whole where were you to huh? she looked at me and I looked at her and we laughed then went off and danced. I never went with the intention of telling anyone and I realised that it couldve gone so wrong but thats why I urge others in my situation to seek out a person you trust and take a leap of hope! It can give you the energy to go on when everything else is wrong!
