I've had a crush on my bestfriend since February. We're really close, I've kissed her a few times in that they were either dares or my friend begging for us to kiss cause it'd be "hot". But I sleep over her house often, at least 2 times a week, and we always cuddle and kiss each others cheeks and shit like that. And she thinks very highly of me and compliments me all the time. She's straight. When I told her I liked her in February, she obviously wouldn't like me back being that she knew me as a girl. I came out to her as a guy about 2 weeks ago, her being the first person, and she considers me a guy now. I don't know if I'll ever have a chance with her or not. But it really sucks. She still likes this guy she went out with over a year ago, like a lot. I'm the only one she talks to about it, and I want her to be able to talk to me about it. The fact that I fucking like her so much and everytime I look at her or talk to her or anything, the feelings I get wow. It kind of just makes everything suck and I don't know how to stop it. Or what to do. :bang:
Hey, when she told you that she doesn't like you back, you have to accept it. Of course, maybe it makes a difference for her if you are a girl or a guy... maybe there is a little chance that she gets feelings for you as a guy. Sometimes friends become a couple because they discover their feelings for each other. But that are just so many "maybe"s, that I think it would be less painful for you, when you try to accept that you are just friends. Or when you can't accept it, then talk to her again and tell her about your feelings. When she says "No" again, maybe this rejection helps you in acccepting it. And I'm sure after that, you'll still be friends. She knows you as girl and that you had a crush on her --> she still liked you as a friend. You are a guy now and she accepts it --> she still likes you as a friend... so I guess at the end you'll still be friends. She could help you to make it easier for you to get over it. Good luck (*hug*)