Help you guys it hurts so much.How do I move on and find someone else

Well I am finally free.I finally told him how I felt and he wants
to be my friend after all.Thank goodness.A huge load has been
lifted off me.However if doesn't mean I am happy.He was the
personification of my dream guy.He's sensitive,nice,and he's
also very good looking.The thought that he won't ever be mine
hurts.Sometimes I just feel like crawling back into a hole and wait
for death to come.He was everything I wanted in a man but he will
never be mine.Let's just say I cried for an hour straight.All I did was
cry and wail and cuss out all my pain.I really did love him. :tears:

Fair enough.I wouldn't want to force him to try be gay same way I don't
want a woman trying to "straighten me up".However,I feel like I will never
find a guy who is gay that I can be attracted to and fall in love with.

Most of the gays,I know are effeminate,flamboyant and downright slutty
for me.I want a guy that likes man stuff and very chill.But it seems like
he doesn't exist.Most gay groups in my city cater to older men 30 above
and the homosexuals I know are always the stereotypical ones.My life
sucks.How do I move on.

PS.I hope no one gets offended by my post. I'm not a judgemental person,
I will make friends with anyone when I get the chance unless they're mean
to me.I just know what attracts me and what doesn't.