I realized I was gay in eighth grade before high school. Ever since then, I've been thinking about getting intimate with my uncle (who is married to my sister's brother). It's so weird. I find him very attractive and nice. And the feelings started when we would hug. We hug many times throughout the day. The time when he greets me; the time when we're just sitting there we act a bit playful with each other and end up hugging a bit; the time when he leaves. It repeats every time I see him! He even hugged me for a long time one day. And, at one point, I actually started to like getting those hugs. But, I see him at least twice every year so I don't see him too often. But, I just feel so stupid for falling for him! I can't like my own uncle; we'd never get intimate. It's so wrong in every way. Even for gays, hardly any of those relationships are between relatives. It's so weird! I can't even wrap my mind around something so disgusting! I know it's wrong but I can't let it go! It's becoming a nuisance because he's so attractive. *^*
I think its totally fine to have fantasies about your relatives. However, there is a different between having fantasies and actually acting on them. What is your age differences? He may just be hugging you because he thinks of you as a nephew. My aunts/uncles hug me all the time!
He is in his mid-40s while I'm 16. Well, I'm glad he hugs me. It feels really nice sometimes. Anyways, do you know how I could get rid of these feelings? I don't want to do something I'll regret.
You're not alone in this regard. I have a cousin who (still) isn't aware I have a huge crush on him, gawd he's a tall drink of water! <3 He's married, has kids, lives in Canada, I rarely get to see him. He doesn't even know how I feel about him and he never will if I can help it. It sucks, but that's life. Life just sucks.
