When I was in my early teens, I underwent a series of traumatic events related to my father (name-calling, violent rage, mocking, unwanted sexual advances, etc.) and have sine developed a fascination for father-aged men. I have this complex that I thought for a while might be sexual, but it was actually my really wanting a father, or for someone to see that I'd been hurt - preferably a father-aged man. I can't stand it: I'm such a sycophant around these individuals, wanting their attention, wishing they would love me and pay attention to me. But I don't think it's sexual, because I'm not sexually attracted to these men. I'm more attracted to women in general than I am to men, but don't have problems with wishing women would love and like me. Has anyone else suffered from a craving for attention and/or affection from the opposite - or same - sex, even if that longing wasn't rooted in sexuality?
