Before I realised I was a lesbian, I had a stressful 8-month relationship with a guy, and it left me depressed. The whole thing was so fake but I was in denial, and felt I was just going with what he wanted. Anyway, fast forward 7 months after the break-up, and I'm still angry and frustrated and hurt and feeling trapped about it, even though it's over. I didn't really get to celebrate it ending, which I so desperately wanted to do. It took me ages just to have a couple of days of respite from this, but that was months ago. How can I put it behind me? :bang:
Mmhh is probably because you are still attached to idea of having a straight life and your subconscious is fighting your decision to end that relationship? I think the only way to forget about that horrible experience is looking for a soul mate.
Sometimes the other person isn't willing to give us the closure we need. For whatever reason, they are too scared, embarrassed, or just turn out to be a nasty person. When this happens, you have to give yourself the closure. I know you're probably thinking its impossible but you must if you ever want to move on with your life.
