If this is misplaced I apologize :p

I wasn't really sure where to put this, but I do have something I'd really more like to talk about than particularly need advice about.

I don't really super get along with my dad. I think he cares about me, but he definitely sucks at showing it.

When I was 15, he found out I was bi and that made for a terrible teenage experience for me. I pretty much spent from then until just recently in a depression. He was like a crummy parental figure about this.

His first brilliant idea was to have a 'talk' with me. This talk was him reading about why being gay was wrong in the bible, and how it would lead to bestiality and w/e else. Then while our cat was running around the room he lifted up its tail and asked if that turned me on. Which was pretty degrading and not cool -.-'

At another point I remember he asked me if I'd ever been raped...I was just like what the ****!?

Then he kicked me out of his house at one point ( only for like a day, but still ) he told me to call my mom and have her come get me. He sat beside me as I went to call her reminding me that I hadn't told her I was bi, and telling me it was because I was ashamed of it like I should be because it's wrong. I guess from other stories I've heard annoying problems like this aren't uncommon.

I've never really had it in me to talk openly to people about this kind of thing unless I'm protected by a computer screen. I even came out over Facebook, cause I'm pathetic like that.

He had a very nice comment on my Facebook, actually supportive...which pretty well blew my mind. That is until I remembered it was on the internet and he probably only said something nice to save face.

So basically, he says he cares. From experience, he hates everything about me. That's all...I didn't really have a point for this, I guess I just wanted to lay it all out for my own sake.

Hope you enjoy this heart-warming read

 

He's come around in a way. That's more or less mostly past stuff.

He is a right-winger though

If I ever got a boyfriend I'd have to swing by my dad's place just to mess with him though lol

 

I do anymore. I mean he doesn't say anti-gay stuff anymore, but he's not really encouraging either.

Now a days it's about him telling me why I suck as a person, then I figure out a direction for my life and he proceeds to tell me why if I'm not working for a corporation I'm wasting my time. I guess we're all supposed to just be slaves and forget the whole concept of 'innovation'. Also, you get no respect working at Walmart, that's not a 'real job'.

I'd love to invent something. Me and my brother have a few ideas, but we don't have the money to fund a project -.-'

 

I'll have to look into that. We're really just hoping right now that my brother's book gets published so that we can use whatever bit of money we get off of it to start work on making an app RPG. After that we've got a few more projects I'd love to see completed, but you got to take life one step at a time xD

It's cool. I really mainly left this here to vent. I'm glad people cared enough to comment though. I've told that story on other LGBT sites and people didn't even bother to acknowledge it...these days I wouldn't care, but back then I was really just desperate for at least one person to care...I never really got that, but oh well. I managed to do enough caring for myself, screw everyone else. They all suck anyways, I'm starting to learn that being a crappy person is part of the human condition.