Hello Everyone! I am 43 years old and have been married for almost 12 years. In those almost 12 years, none of them have been truly happy. To start off, I did come out when I was 28. I was in a relationship with my high school crush and so in love with her! We lived together for some time and she was another mom to my son. I always heard "you're not really a lesbian" or "you're just experimenting" from my family. Finally the pressure got to both of us and we split. I decided that maybe I wasn't really a lesbian. Maybe I was bi. So I started dating men again and then married my husband. The first few years were good. I was able to put my desire for women aside (never truly gone though). When I turned 40, I started to re-evaluate my life. I started thinking more and more about women and told my husband "I really think I might be a lesbian". He laughed it off and I just set my feelings aside for the sake of everyone else. Well, last May, I had enough! I went to my husband, came out and said that I would try to stay with him, but, he had to accept me or I would leave right then and there! Needless to say, our sex life was (and still is) in the toilet! I still haven't acted on my feelings and it is affecting me! I am so depressed! I want to express who I truly am! The only reason I am still married is not to disappoint anyone and because, in some way, I still love my husband (more as a friend). Who else is going through something similar? I really need help!
