It's amazing what people say when they think you can't hear them

and by people, I mean my mother. I just overheard a phone call between my mother and grandmother (my mom always uses speakerphone) I heard myself come up in conversation. I decided to pay attention and found out that my mom pretty much thinks I am a failure, not going to get into college, don't do anything, etc. she even brought up that I don't have a job.

I am fairly introverted with pretty severe social anxiety, and as a result I don't get out much (not that there is anything to do anyway).

I spend most of my time trying to distract myself from the present until I can get out of here.

I haven't been able to really trust my mother since I came out, and so I don't feel comfortable talking about anything with her, and while I did have a therapist I stopped going pretty soon after I started because she was flipping back and forth between different issues and just making my anxiety worse.

the one thing that helped was when I went to a couple of the youth meetings at the LGBT center but I stopped because I couldn't afford the gas to get there and my parents wouldn't help me pay for it.

I feel like I should be going to a therapist of some kind, but I don't know how to talk about it especially since I don't trust my mother and I don't feel comfortable talking to my father about it.

Any advice you can give is greatly appreciated