Fun in Friend-crush land

Alright - Not too long after starting High School, I met a kid in my class who simply refused to talk to anyone. I felt really bad for him, knew how he felt. I tend to revolve around people who are feeling down. He was eccentric, perhaps even a bit insane (at least he believed so) but he was the single most caring, kind person I had ever met. I felt as though he was a better version of me, in a way.

We became very good friends, and started chatting on Steam fairly often. Him and a few friends of mine slept over a buddy's place, and stayed up most of the night browsing questionable web sites (4 CHAN!) and generally becoming overly rowdy (I felt at the time). Oddly enough, this good friend of mine (we'll call him Greg) specifically asked to sleep in another room. (I mention this only because it was interesting to realize why afterwords)


As we chatted on steam for longer periods of time, he started revealing a "secret of the week" (every week, obviously). For me, I really felt that I was falling down the rabbit hole, as he was unknowingly digging up some of my deeply buried, slightly messed up past. Soon, Greg gave me access to his Twitter account which had none of his personal information, so that people he knew in real life couldn't find it. Most of the information I had already known, except, well, he's bi.

I come from a deeply conservative christian family, but I immediately told him that there was nothing wrong with any of that, that he was still the same person I had met a year ago. That was my first encounter with LGBT anything, and I had trouble sleeping for a few nights.

A while after that, I realized I loved him. I believe we were doing stretches or sit-ups or something in gym, and all of the sudden I looked over, he looked back and it hit me like a brick wall. Sometimes movies will sarcastically show a main character's love interest with a really over-exposed camera (lighting wise) and a choir in the background, and I allways thought that was just a myth, but holy crap, I realized it wasn't, and started blushing a whole lot :icon_redf

I became very protective of him for the rest of that year. When he tried doing trust falls I nearly had a heart - attack. :eek:

Fast forward to now. I suddenly decided that enough was enough. Came out to my therapist, wrote Greg a note asking if he wanted to go to Prom. His response made it seem like I had just meant as friends, so later on I went on steam and told it to em' straight (no pun intended) that I had a crush on him. I explained that he didn't have to talk to me anymore if he didn't want to. Of course, the email account which I use to log on to Steam got hacked, so I had to destroy it, so now I won't know how he responded or if he even saw the message. I'm just gonna have to wait till' Monday to see how he reacts.

Wish me luck,

Pummelmuffin

 

T-Minus one day 'till something

 

OK, just got home, and :***:, I'm fairly certain he never saw the message. He acted no different than usual. I did mention that my Steam account got hacked, and he never mentioned trying to send me anything, his response was just "oh, that sucks." I'm not sure if I have the guts to tell him face-to-face, and it wouldn't be comfortable for him as he only shares his closet with a few others and he's quite shy and awkward anyways... any suggestions?

 

I would try asking him over steam, but I got a new account and he's never on, so he isn't going to accept the friend request any time soon. I suppose I could just hand him another note, but... wow... that's going to take a whole lot of courage, and I will feel really bad if he reacts negatively. I would hate to put him in an awkward position (what ya gonna do, though)

 

Sorry to be Necromancing the thread somewhat, but I need some advice... It's friday, and still, nothing's happened. I have some time to wright a note making myself clear, but I get the feeling that being told that a good friend of yours has a crush on you by note would be very, very awkward. He's a shy kid, and I forgot to mention, when I gave him the first note, his exact words were I'M SCARED...