Okay so, I'm trying to get over my feelings or infatuations or whatever it is I feel for my best friend.. And I'm thinking of meeting new ppl.. But the problem is that, I DON'T KNOW HOW TO.. I mean I don't have trouble meeting new ppl, it's just that the ppl I meet are, most of the time straight, and the one's that aren't, are gays and not lesbians.. so wtf do I do? I live in a very conservative country and it's really hard over here to be openly gay.. I just had a haircut, and my dad won't speak to me.. HE WON'T EVEN LOOK AT ME.. He thinks I look like a guy, which in my opinion is stupid because I feel more feminine now with this hairstyle than I ever did before (nope idk why don't ask I'm weird like that ) anyways, I can't openly tell ppl I'm gay, not until we know each other well enough and I kinda don't want too many ppl to know yet, at least not too many before my sister.. or my mother.. but that's a whole other problem... should I go online? But I don't want to.. I'd prefer talking one-on-one..... Ugh.. help?
