Backstory: The idea of being in a relationship was not in my future back then. I wanted to just be alone and not allow anyone into my life. The idea of ever being with someone I ignored simply because in my mind the idea most people had for me was to be with a guy and I knew this would not happen. I feel in just a year I have grown and realized maybe the idea of being in a relationship would be nice. The reason why I say this now is because one I finally came out to my family and for some reason this opened the door for me. Now I am not completely ready to be in a relationship at the moment, but the idea has run through my head more times now than ever in the past. Is this normal? In a way I still feel I am unworthy of love and afraid to let someone into my world, but in another way I would really like it too. I am on the fence since I guess it just depends if I ever find someone who feels the same way as I do for them. I am still a virgin and the idea of being physically close makes me nervous; mainly because you are showing vulnerability and ah the emotional part too scares me just because of other issues I am working on at the moment. So to end it. Did many doors open for you when you came out? Meaning did you finally realize you may actually want a relationship? Or have you always felt this?
