Hey, so what now?

(Viewers beware, your in for a... long-ish post)

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So this isn't the first time I've talked about my issues with being a third wheel. I've taken a lot of your advice and I thought things were getting better, but they haven't. And I don't think they will.

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Let me just start with a description of what happened. My friend asked me to stay after to help with a club, one that she is president of, and I agreed. By staying after I limited my modes of transportation home to just her and she was aware of this. I have a younger sibling to care for and had to be home by a certain time, something else she was aware of. We've never encountered a problem with staying for clubs until recently.

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I went to the club meeting, but she never showed up. I figured she was just talking to her, older, girlfriend who had recently cheated on her with a male co-worker, so i wasn't immediately concerned. But it began to get late and i started to worry, so I called her. And called her, and called her. 5 times I called and she didn't respond. So i went around the whole school, all four floors, asking everyone if they had seen her. They hadn't and I became more frantic with my search. I tried calling her a few more times and she finally picked up.

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I asked her where she was and she told me that she was in her car. I asked if she was okay (note: her girlfriend had cheated on her, i assumed she was emotionally troubled) and she said she was fine; that she was just hanging out with her girlfriend in her car. By this point I was pissed for having worried for nothing and that she had ditched a club that she was the freaking president of! I told her that I was coming outside to lecture her and go home (it was really late) but she told me to stop. She said that i wasn't to come to the car for at least another 20 mins. I was confused and asked her why, but she just repeated her order and hung up.

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Upon my return to the club room everyone asked me where she was and I relayed the phone conversation to them. They all gave me weird looks and one girl became upset for some reason. They told me that I should go to the car, and I did eventually. I started my walk to the car and saw my friend's girlfriend try to sneak pass me. Her hair was disheveled and I couldn't see her body due to her sitting really low in her car. I got in my friend's car and found her there with a guilty expression, surrounded by clothes that didn't belong to her. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out what had happened.

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My friend had ditched me for 2 hours and let me panic while she was engaging in sexual intercourse with a girl who had cheated on her and lost her virginity to a guy 4 days prior. I'm feeling pissed off , grossed out, and betrayed.

I just... I really don't know what to do at this point. I let my hopes get up. I thought they were finally breaking up and I was getting my friend back. But, no, now she's been taken even further away from me.

Funny thing is, I don't mind that much. In all honesty, I'm sick and tired of dealing with her drama. My life has gotten worse since befriending her. I'd rather go back to being a bullied loser than have to put up with her shit any more. But I can't just ditch her. I used to be the one who depended on her, but now the roles have reversed. It's her that needs me and as much as I might want to, I cant abandon her. Aside from her girlfriend and I, she has no one. She's been cheated on once, it can happen again and that will hurt her. But when I leave, it will destroy her. I do not want to break this girl, my friend, but I will not let myself be broken by her.

So EC, what next?

(sorry about spelling errors, i didn't care to correct them)