Hey all, when I was a teen and in the closet I had a crush on one of my best friends. This went on for 4 years until he got a girlfriend who he's still with and I was crushed by that. 12 years later, if I hear his name mentioned, see a picture of him or even contemplate meeting up with him I get a feeling of awkardness and I guess fear. You know when your stomach goes a bit funny, legs a bit wobbly etc. I find him repulsive now but I still can't shift that feeling. Any advice guys?
Just conflicted feelings, i've had that before with one of my old best mates. Kinda fancied him for a few months. then he left town and i kind of forced myself not to like him so i get a little angry when i think about him but still kind of have that "soft spot" and gets me nervous if i think about seeing him in person again? BUt i just suck it up, and pretend like it doesn't matter and i get over it.
Seems reasonable, he's only one of two that can make me feel like that, I guess its because it went on for so long. Anyway I hardly see him anymore and don't think about him. I'll just keep myself busy
