I'm female and 15 years of age. I've been questioning my sexuality for over 2 years. It used to concern me as to what label I fit into, but I have decided i do not need a label. if I fall for a girl, I will go out with them, the same for males. December 2013 I made friends with a girl, Alexi, and I thought nothing of it. Until January, where i found out she was lesbian. I managed to message her by Kik and we talked for a bit. She then admitted she had a crush on me. I hardly really knew Alexi, but I had felt something different around her. I replied with 'crazy to say...but me too'. and it went from there. We 'went out' for 3 weeks in secret but it was hell because I had to try and hide it so nobody knew. That proved difficult as we were fairly physical with hugging and stuff at lunch. Then everyone somehow found out Alexi had a girlfriend, (me) and somehow worked out it was me. So we spilt up after that and tried to be just friends. We have tried being just friends for over 6 months and it hasn't worked. Really it's her that keeps being physical, arm round my shoulders when i make her laugh, hugs me forever when i say bye after school. I didn't like it because i knew we couldn't go out. So it was awkward when she did it as i didn't hug back/acknowledge her affection. I have no idea if It is love or real feelings for Alexi that i have, or if it is infatuation. But lets just say when she smiles at me and i'm smiling back, i could lean in and kiss her right there. I told my mother I was confused in February after having a breakdown about Alexi. She is okay me being not straight but doesn't want me out with Alexi. Two of my friends know i'm not straight, one knows how i am with Alexi, One knows i have a crush and want to go out. My dad is extremely homophobic. Now it's the holidays, i'm more free and relaxed, not stressed about school, and wondered if that would be a better time to ask her out? It would have to be at first in secret. Please can I have advice, I'm pretty stuck. Skylar x
