Gay, and in love with straight "friend".

If he knows you like him, and he sends you insulting messages anyway, you might be better off trying to forget about him. I know this sounds harsh and difficult, particularly given how much you have stated you find him cute and you like him, but you might be setting yourself up for continued disappointment. Rather than continue to bang your head against the wall, use your heart to find someone else that will reciprocate your feelings in a more positive way.

 

You are still young, you have a lot of time ahead of you. Don't get down and discouraged if someone doesn't feel the same way because this isn't even close to your final chance at a relationship. If it does mean you are bullied or mocked then this is a problem of course and I would advise you to get help stopping that. Also if he is treating you this way then that is a sign you should walk away; people like that aren't worth the time.

 

I agree with both OnTheHighway and Sek. There are too many good folks in the world (like you) to waist your time with him. It's hard at times when you really like someone to move on but when you find the right person it's the best feeling of all. It will happen.

 

To add on to the others, try to track down who told your secret so you can keep your friend circle locked up tight. Best to avoid further frustrations and embarrassment in the future when you don't have to worry about backstabbers making you miserable.