Straight Girl Needs Help

I am a heterosexual female that fell for a lesbian girl all from just one kiss. After we kissed she started to contact me more. Via text, calling, etc. and i liked it. I also decided to come to her house one weekend as well . I went. We did not have sex, but I did let her go down on me. Which I liked. Now, again I have never been with a Girl before. I really like this girl we work together as well. Anyways we became much closer. Long story short. We would start arguing alot over dumb stuff. She said that I went out to much, she couldnt trust me, and that to many guys were calling my phone. I told her that they were just friends. About a week ago she told me that we could no longer mess around because she had just gotten out of a 2 year relationship and she wasnt ready to be in a relatinship or date. Now I became very confused becasue by this time we had sex for the first time. We were always together, and if felt like she really did like me. She said that I was toxic and that she needs to get herself together but she does want to remain friends. I told her that I don't want to be friennds. I like what we shared. I have not been with anyone since 2010 and I liked the attention, compassion she felt for me, etc. I am so confused I cant stop thinking about her. I have tried and we have only messed around roughly 4 weeks. I dont know what happend. I understand what she is saying but she just cut me off completly. I am devested and confused at the sametime. Recently we had an argument about this break-up and she told me she no longer wants to talk about it. We have not spoken or texted in 3 days. She did text me yesterday to wish me happy bday but I did not respond.

Also I tried to convince her and she told me by doing that I would never win her back. Not sure what she meant by that.

can u please help me? can we be friends? should i respond if she text me? do u think she will ever want me back as to what we were before since now we arent speaking, but i do have to see her at work? Why did she do this to me? I did read that lesbian break it off with straight girls to protect themselves from being hurt. Thanks in advance for helping me.

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StraightGirl