Holding Hands and Cuddling with my Bestfriend.. is he bisexual?

Last night, my best friend of 3 years and I spent the night at my apartment. We are both guys in our early 20s. I am bisexual, but still in the closet, and he is supposedly straight. I've secretly liked him from the first day I met him but have started to fall for him the past year or so. Me and a few other friends suspect that he might like guys too but Ive never confronted him about it.

He came over yesterday and spent the entire day with me writing music. As day turned into night, we eventually laid down on my bed and talked for a while. We decided to watch a movie on my laptop. So I turned out the lights, got my laptop and got under the covers with him and I started the movie. We were laying right beside each other, almost touching, with the laptop on my legs, and I nonchalantly put my arm around him. He didn't say anything or react negatively so I left it there for a while. Eventually I put the laptop on him and at some point decided to take it further and rested my head on his shoulder and crossed my leg over his. I cant remember what exactly was said during all this but the mood was always light that night and we were having a great time enjoying each others company. Not once did he ever resist any advances and he made a few advances himself also. Several times throughout the 2 movies we watched, one of us would have to get up for something, but when we came back we would always go right back to cuddling. One time, when my hand and arm was resting on his chest, he grabbed it and to my surprise just started holding it like we were bf/gf with our fingers interlocked. Occasionally we would gently rub each other with our hands or feet. Eventually we got sleepy and both fell asleep. We woke up about an hour later and he was laying on his back and I had my head on his shoulder with my face touching his, we were still holding hands, our legs were crossed, and his arm was around me. One time he looked at me and said "This is sooo gay" and I jokingly repied "Well, you are gay so shut up". He just kind of just smiled and put his head back down.

He is my absolute best friend, and we have been getting really close recently. He has other friends and so do I, but neither of us show that kind of affection to anyone else. This was the first time anything like this has happened. He always tells me he loves me and I do the same when we say goodbye.

I am bisexual myself, Ive been with plenty of girls, but never have I done anything like this with a guy because im still so deep in the closet. It felt so magical to cuddle with him and hold his hand.. I never wanted him to leave in the morning, although I never told him this.

I have so many questions but Im terrified of bringing it up to him because I dont want to ruin our friendship if he doesnt feel the same way as I do. What do you all think? Do you think he has feelings for me? Should I talk to him about what happened or should I just keep letting our relationship progress naturally?

Unfortunately he went through high school being called gay by all his friends and was picked on in other ways because of his shyness. If he is bisexual, I know he would be terribly afraid of coming out to me because of all the crap he used to get. Im afraid that it has been drilled into his head that "being gay" is a bad and unacceptable thing.

 

Thank you to everyone for all the love, support, and advice! You all have really helped. Ive decided Im going to take things slow with him and let things progress naturally. I don't want to be pushy or try to force it out of him and it turn him off/away, or worse ruin our friendship..

I've seen him twice since that night everything happened. The first time was yesterday afternoon. I was so tempted to ask him to watch a movie with me again but we really didn't have time, and I didn't want him to think I just wanted to cuddle with him again. Not much happened that day and he didn't stay long because we both had other stuff to do. The only significant thing that happened was right before he left. We were both sitting on my bed when he told me he had to go. It bummed me out a bit and I laid down and told him I didn't want him to leave. Then he just started rubbing my back. He stopped after a few seconds. I told him there is no way Im letting him leave without a few more minutes of that. So he started rubbing my back again and then got up and sat on my ass and continued. After a few minutes, I turned over, grabbed him and tackled him to the bed (he didn't put up much of a fight lol) and started to return the favor. I also added in a head massage to go along with it. You could tell he loved every second of it This went on for about 5 minutes and then he left.

After work, he came over again today. He could only stay for about an hour and then he had to go hangout with one of his girlfriends (that is, a friend that is a girl). After that, he came right back over and hung out some more. We were going to watch a movie and I was excited, but unfortunately we ended up not doing that because again there wasn't enough time. We hung out a bit more, and I rested my head on his lap for a bit while playing guitar. He didn't seem to mind at all. He had to go shortly after.

He should be coming over tomorrow. I'll keep yall updated on everything that happens. I wish sooo bad that things would progress faster, but Im too afraid of pushing too far and too afraid of just bringing up the subject and talking about it. If I could just get as far as a first kiss then I would know he likes me as more than a friend. I would be the happiest guy on the planet <3 It seems every minute of every day I can't stop thinking about him and that night. I may end up just talking to him about it if I get too impatient. Wish me luck.

 

Im having a lot of anxiety right now and just feel sad in general. Every thought i have is about him. I can't get him off my mind. It's like im being tortured by these thoughts because I wake up with them and go to sleep with them. I can't stop trying to decide in my mind if he's into me or not. It's like a merry go round going back and forth between he likes me and he doesn't like me. Just when I think I've figured it out, my mind tricks itself into thinking otherwise. I need something to take my mind off him.