What do I do with my trainwreck of a family?

I'm tired of it. I can't take the stress anymore. I'm a senior in high school right now, and already in my last semester(if i graduate this year) and yet i just want to run away from it all.

I feel as if my family hates me. I'm not even out to them, save for a cousin and mom, yet i just know that they hate me for being me. I'll be honest I am a bit childish, and annoying but only with friends, but I have had to isolate myself in my room, playing games and on tumblr or youtube, to help me escape my family. I've tried EVERYTHING I can to make these monsters happy, yet still they flipping go against me. My young cousin can't stand me, my older cousin thinks i give her attitude when i talk to her as normal as my anti-social tune can get and gets so upset that she threatens to beat me up, my aunt ALWAYS has criticism and never shuts up, my mom ignores me and has more concerns with her soon-to-be husband than her problematic son, my soon-to-be stepdad is such an irritating sexist, and my uncle is forcing me to waste my saturdays at the gym because he said that "I'm too skinny" when I'm only 17 and have high metabolism. The last part I find offensive because telling me I'm too skinny is like telling someone that they're too fat.

Not only do they treat me like trash, they don't even support the life dicisions i make. I said i wanted to make money on youtube and become an animator, they think I won't achieve that. I don't want to go to college AT ALL, not even community college, yet they say that I have to to make a living or that the college of my choice (even though I had no choice) is too expensive. I want to explore the world, visit the other US states maybe travel, they tell me it's hard out there. I want to move out, they say I can't cause ANY job I get will not be enough to pay the rent. I want to get a job, they said I can't cause it will interfere with my schoolwork, that no one will hire me because I'm inexperienced, and that I need to arrange college course hours first and then get a job, even after saying I don't want to go to college. I'M FIGHTING A LOSING BATTLE!!!

Being an only-child, i saw to my older and younger cousins as my sisters, yet this is literally breaking my heart that I actually felt like something in my chest actually tore apart. I have no one to look up to, no one to accept me, no one to support me, except my friends and boyfriend, and I only see friends at school and my boyfriend is a 9-10hour drive away from me. Everything I do for them is nothing, so I just gave up. Being isolated is the only happiness i have ever experienced since I was 10, and I don't think it'll get any better until I move in(or run away with) my boyfriend, and I don't even have the heart to tell them about him.

If you read through all that, thanks a million. I could really use the help right now. If anyone can give me advice on how to live with this til May(expected graduation) that would be great. Also, I ask if you guys can give me some ideas on getting revenge on my family. I'm the vengeful kind of person who keeps grudges, and I want to scar them into knowing they f*cked up. The only thing I could think of that leaves that kind of scar would be suicide, but that won't let me see the results, and it'll be devastating to the people I actually do care about. Thanks in advance for the help. I can't be convinced out of my grudge cause this kind of sh*t has been going on the past 7(almost 8) years now.:bang::help:

 

I stopped feeling guilt when I made my mom cry just because I didn't want to go to my middle school graduation(she made me go to a school in mexico cuz she was living in mexico, and i already graduated from middle school a year before this one). I choose not to want to go because my classmates were bullies and they NEVER stopped. Not even the staff or principal did sh*t about it, and it when on ALL. YEAR. LONG. I'm already scared to step out of my room, and you think I would regret it? The fact that my mom cried left some cheer in me knowing I got some revenge after all the hell and betrayal I've been though, so telling me I'll feel bad about it ain't gonna work whatsoever, and this happened 4. YEARS. AGO.

 

Apply for a job.Get hired. Get revenge by rubbing it in their faces and prove them wrong. You can do anything you set your mind to and you seem determined. Plus you will never get experience if you never try/get a chance to try.

We're here, everyone on EC supports you, you're not alone. Trust me. My life hasn't been quite the hell you are in, but it still is hell.

 

Thank you. Both responses are helpful.TacobellKFC(awesome url name btw) your advice if great, and HandsomeQueen your idea for revenge is effective, though I don't think it will make the result I anticipate. Thank you both.