Hello friends. First of all my thanks for adding me and for everything each of you provides to this amazing forum. I am here to tell you a bit about myself and my struggles along the way. I am 21, graduated and excelling professionaly in an optimal career in finance. I have always been very confident and mentally strong, handsome and intelligent (this bragging will come handy later ). I have always known I was gay but never came out besides to my brother some months ago. I am masculine and always refused myself to be with a girl due to lack of attraction. I have also never been with a man since I honestly do not know gay guys (into straight dominated hobbies - gym, dog security handling, ...I guess and living in a very homophobe country), can not afford to have people finding out my orientation (not due to self-confusion but mostly because of professional, family or friend related setbacks) and people which are clearly gay/girly I am simply not attracted to. I could not care less with everyone s opinion but the consequences of coming out would be dire. Trust me, despite all this, I am a very happy person. All but in one aspect of my life that is... This is simply put an introduction of myself I am struggling daily due to lack of intimacy. I have no gay friends, can not attend gay venues, can not even find a single masculine gay guy. I have considered hiring an escort but there are no decent ones in lisbon (rentboy/rentmen) as money would not be a problem. How would you manage this? My job is stressful as it is and I need some fun. I go out with straight people and I can not hit neither men or women!
If money is not an issue, perhaps arrange to take regular vacations in other countries that are more gay friendly. For a more permanent solution, perhaps consider moving to another part of Europe that is more gay friendly. Just some thoughts, Todd
