I don't get crushes very often, so as a result I don't really think about relationship stuff in general very often. Until recently. I have a crush on a guy in one of my classes, which I think is going pretty well, we hang out a lot and even went to a dance thing together. I was super happy about all this until I realized I may have another crush at the same time, but on a girl. I've never really thought about my own sexuality too much, even though I have friends who aren't straight who I've helped in the past with their sexuality, and I assumed I was straight. The girl I may have a crush on is a friend of mine who I've become really close to lately. I feel really comfortable and happy when I'm with her and despite my really bad trust issues, I feel like I can trust her. I don't usually like physical contact with people, but I feel so safe with her and sometimes I just want to embrace her and never let go. ... as I'm writing this I'm realizing how much she really means to me and I'm scared. I'm not an emotional type of person, yet I feel... gosh I don't even know. I'm just scared and confused and lost and need to talk with someone about this before I go insane.
