Gay Boy in Love with his Possibly Gay Best Friend

I have had this friend for 3 years and just recently we have started to become extremely close. In the past we would hang out occasionally and text every now and then but it never went further than that. We went to high school together for two years, and sometimes we couldn't stand each other but that seems forever ago. Almost like it never happened. Anyway, we've gotten really close lately and we try to see each other as much as possible and after two months of texting and talking each day he told me he loved me. I didn't know how to react because I was scared if I told him that I had started to fall in love with him it would make him not want to be my friend any longer. We continued talking and our relationship has became quite physical. We cuddle next to each other when I go over to his house and he always rubs my hair and plays with it and sometimes he lays his head against my chest and snoozes, and I do the same to him. We have never really addressed what we are to one another and I'm scared to. We always tell each other goodnight and he even calls me his sweet prince. He says he is straight around his other friends but and won't act the way around them he does around me. And he acts like he is scared to show he is too close to me when we're around certain people. I'm really wondering whether or not he is gay though because he fits the bill and has always acted quite feminine around me in certain ways. I mean he loves musicals and is terribly well groomed. I'm not meaning to dwell on stereotypes or anything I'm just saying. Sometimes when we cuddle we'll look at each other and kind of gaze at each other and he always has this look in his eyes and sometimes I really want to go ahead and try to kiss him but I'm scared to. I don't want to lose him and at this point I can't see me living without him. I just wish I could figure out whether he is gay or just bi-curious or something. He has dated girls in the past but hasn't had much luck. What should I do?

 

Thank you so much! I really needed help with this because I was really confused and I've never been with anyone or been in love with anyone before. He sort of told me earlier that he might be bisexual so we're definitely making progress.

 

I think I'm gay, but at the same time I have dated women but I never felt anything. I'm not sure really. He is the first person I've ever really fallen in love with, and I don't know how to proceed. We talked today about being gay and I told him that I wasn't sure I was entirely straight and that I didn't want to say I couldn't possibly be attracted to men. He said he thinks he is bisexual, but we haven't really made it out to one another what we think our relationship is yet. I'm scared that we both are scared to act out of fear of being rejected. He told me he loved me, and we tell each other we love each other every now and then but I'm never sure of it because he seems to change the subject quickly afterwards. I might talk to him about all this when I see him this weekend. I'm just scared to act too fast because I don't want this to end. We've been getting closer and closer for a few months now and I think it might be time I make my feelings known to him.

 

Thank all of you so much. I think he is scared of his own sexuality a bit and I just wish he'd be more open about it. I don't get to see him as much I would like because he is in college and I'm a senior in high school, but I'm hoping that changes after I graduate. I'm really not thinking about sex yet kindy14. Haha. I'm not sure when this is going to progress to that stage. I'll keep you guys posted though and I really appreciate everyone's comments. I actually watched a film last night that sort of reminded me of us.

 

So this is sort of an update! I'm supposed to see him sometime this weekend. Probably Sunday because he is seeing a friend tomorrow and I don't exactly like being around him when he's around our small group of friends anymore because he acts different around them and it hurts. Anyway I think if it comes to it I might try to tell him how I feel. Lately he has seemed very obsessed with the whole gay thing and always brings it up and then changes the subject quickly. Like I said earlier in the thread he told me he might be bisexual the other night, but I didn't take my chance to tell him my feelings because I'm never sure it's the right time, and he always giving me this vibe that even though he has feelings he still ISNT comfortable enough in is own skin. I feel like we were a lot closer when we first started talking than we are now and that really worries me. :/ Anyway I'll update you guys with how things go on Sunday night. Thanks!

 

Now he seems to be ignoring me and acted like he didn't want to see me this weekend. I'm not sure why. :/ He seems to be really touchy about the gay thing lately and I'm starting to think he thinks I'm homophobic. I'm not though. This is so complicated.

 

I hope so. He finally texted me earlier but we argued and then I told him I love him and he said he always knew I did but he didn't say it back. I told him goodnight a little while ago but he hasn't said it back. I miss him terribly and I want to see him.

 

Thank you so much. I do need to just leave him alone for a bit I suppose, it just hurts to and I start to miss talking to him.

 

Well today he finally told me why he had been so distant lately saying his parents were fighting. He's going away to his grandparents this weekend to calm down and relax. I might just hold off texting him because he is acting really frustrated. I starting crying in front of my mom today because school and him were stressing me out and I couldn't even tell her why I was really crying.

 

Things are not going good. He didn't text me all weekend or reply to my texts and I texted him today and asked him why he was ignoring me, and he finally texted back saying he had been busy and didn't text back. I then found out he had been hanging out and doing nothing all weekend with some friends. I don't know what to do now. I haven't seen him in 3 weeks and I'm missing him terribly and I just want to know what to do. And he's acting so weird lately it scares me. What should I do?