I am now comfortable in my own skin and have no problem liking other women. In fact, I have been crushing hard on this chick that caught my eye and she drives me crazy. . . but I have some issues to deal with. Some days I hate myself for liking women, because I don't have anyone. My husband is one of them. I do love him unconditionally, but I have been feeling so distant from him lately and it doesn't help that I feel nothing when it comes to making love. He had been emotionally abusive for a long long time and he instigated a threesome with another woman in our marriage last summer and that is how I realized I am indeed bi. I kind of knew but was unable to experiment to find out. But lately, I feel less about him and maybe I am a lesbian. I know I have some anger issues and anxiety to deal with. Maybe I am blaming him for too much; anxiety, atelophobia, sexuality. The marriage is getting better, though. Since accepting the fact that I like women, he accepted that too and it doesn't affect him negatively. We talk about it occasionally and it doesn't bring any negative thoughts or feelings. Anyway, I am rambling on and on but I needed to get this out. I have held back with my sessions with the new therapist. . . maybe I should give it another shot. . .
