I've been feeling rather lonely. My friends haven't been chatting with me a whole lot lately. I feel isolated. Report cards came and went. Mother was content with my grades. The only reason I still try in school is just so mother would start hitting me less. I feel so tired. I feel so aggravated in class. I know I am a smarter than most of my peers, but sometimes my efforts do not seem to be appreciated. My classmate had gotten a higher mark on an assignment. I smiled and congratulated him. While my ears went deaf from my internal screaming. Afterwards I felt extremely awful for being such a hypocrite. I feel overwhelmed. If I do not maintain my straight A average, I fear mother is going to abandon me. Though that wouldn't be a terrible idea. She never took her time to make sure I understood the concept of a test that I had failed. She never asked about how my day went at school. I don't even talk to her about my issues anymore. Father's off stage and unaccounted for. My friends are busy and I don't want to disturb them. Sometimes I feel like I should just run away. From home, from school, and from our oppressive society. And hopefully I could just die on the streets. But that would be taking an eternal solution to a temporal problem. Maybe I just need to find someone to cuddle with. Someone to laugh with. Someone to smile with. Yet I'm still clutching at my sordid memories even though they're broken, and I'm adrift.
