parents making me feel horrible about my decisions...:(

hello, first i guess this might turn into a rant, but i need to vent because i feel like crap. my parents are not accepting of the gay lifestyle and iv even gotten into debates on if im going to hell or not because i recently came out to them. also i recently decided to start online dating and my mother keeps making me feel like shit.

iv decided to go on a date with a man thats 32. im 23. i know theirs a huge age difference first of all but is that really that bad? i mean its not like were getting married im just dating to see where it goes. 9 years is alot though... thoughts on this?

also how do you cope with parents constantly reminding you that you need help, or that i should talk to a therapist about this. or that im being unsafe, this one is big because i like to be safe but shes so paranoid, she brings up the most rediculous scenarios. the date is during the day, were just going for a walk, and its only less than 15 minutes away from where i live. and iv told my mom the place we are going to walk and the time ill be back, no more than 2ish hours. before sunset.

its just fusterating and i know people cant MAKE you feel a certain way, we choose to feel how we feel, happy sad or whatever, its how we look at life and our outlook that decides how we feel, but people sure as heck can influence us. and my parents influence is kinda making me feel like i may be destroying my future by my decision to come out of the closet completely. i have not come out yet all the way. just friends and parents.

i do live with my parents currently so this is kinda a problem, its even more fusterating because i respect my parents and told them if they didnt want me to date since im still under their roof i wouldnt, and i would wait till i had my own place and was on my own, but they said it was fine. yet they still nag and say crap..which makes me think i should just wait till i move out in a about a year or so. anyway thanks for letting me rant.

any ways you cope with situations like this? should i just stay in the closet for another year? iv been in it for 23 so it cant hurt much more right? also do you think 9 years age difference is to much to even consider dating?? thanks.