I am gay but i dont accept it. Help. I am getting sick.

I live in the Caribbean too, I want to be happy and to have a boyfriend and enjoy life with him. I don't need kids. But I always feel like Ill be stared at and I'll be looked st like a criminal and it makes me uncomfortable and harder to accept being gay too.

I think the thing to do is just keep to a yourself and your boyfriend and be careful in selecting friends and if your family would lose you they think your happiness is being the straight, its not its theirs. People will always tell you a lot of things to make you feel like a second class citizen.

They did it to black people to feel sub human,religious minorities to feel like they're going to hell, disables people to feel broken, made women feel like lesser beings to just make babies and take care of them and now gays to feel defective and cursed. Children to feel like they can't do anything.

 

Sweetie, take a deep breath. Anyone who does not accept you for the wonderful person you are doesn't deserve you. It's as simple as that. As someone who knows they will lose the love of all of their family the moment they come out, it's hard, I know. But you have to surround yourself with people who truly care about you.

Be honest with your boyfriend. Tell him how much he means to you. And tell him you're trying your best; because you are. Tell him you love him.

Don't be afraid, please. The world is becoming more and more accepting towards us, though it may not seem so. Things will get better.

As for your dreams of a family, you can still adopt children, there are thousands of children waiting for a home.

Everything will be alright <3

 

Also there are news about embryo research that may allow same-sex parents to have biological children!

 

oh my god your killing me! ;o) whadda ya mean you don't accept being gay? it's who you are! one thing I know for sure is that I was made gay...I don't particularly like it either, it's a hard life, but I know if I don't roll with it it will kill me. I've never accepted my gayness with the kind of joyous abandonment I see a lot of people showing, but I know God made me this way and I have to deal with it. There's a lot of great things about the gay world, but you need to pick through a lot of shit to find them! Chill out, Cyrus xo ps..I love BC. lived in Vancouver for 4 years and spent a year on Gabriola Island!

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WHOOPS!!! This is the first time I've ever posted on here and I was replying to someone who replied to your post who lives in BC thinking they were the one who said they didn't accept being gay..does that make sense?

You live on an island in the tropics? If I were you I'd be on the beach playing with my dog and laughing. Of course I'm being silly, because I know being gay in the Caribbean is not an easy way to go, in fact it's really intense, not a lot of acceptance.

You have to go within to find happiness, you have to find it in yourself, that's all I know. Nothing works until you find a way to live an authentic life, ya know? Hiding is a lie. I know because I hid for years. Sometimes I still feel I have to, but I know the difference.

You can't be out where you live, especially if it's somewhere like Jamaica or Trinidad..I mean you can, of course, but it comes with a lot of risk. I wish you luck.

 

Hey you are not alone! I am from the Caribbean too and it's something we all go through. Sometimes you just need to stop and take a breath. Just live your life now and stop worrying ten years down the road. Im not saying you shouldn't plan ahead but don't let that be your only waking thought.