So I had my first gay relationship and the guy turned out to be kind of a dick. Fairly disheartening as a first time experience. I feel kinda cheap and used for falling for him, but I really liked him. I certainly don't think this will be the case with all guys I try to date, but I just felt the need to vent nonetheless :eusa_doh:
Most people's first times aren't the best, so don't feel too bad. All you can do is work on improving yourself, and setting your sights higher next time.
As long as you learn from what worked and what didn't, then you can come out of this better and ready for a more positive relationship.